Do you ever feel like your life is a movie ?
I do, and I know that that's something everyone says, that is attention seeking and drives people crazy . It drives me crazy. But usually when they say that they mean there life's amazing and unreal, I say it because it's the way I get through the day and That I need to keep going for the cameras. but it's honestly more of I'm just sitting back and watching my life play, like watching a movie. I know that if this was a movie it wouldn't be amazingly happy or sad it would just be pathetic, people would pity me not because of how bad my life is but because how pathetic I actually am. I'm worthless and I deserve nothing. I did this to myself, I put this in my head. Im dramatic and just a waste. It would be better if I dissolved. I have so much negativity on myself. It's not like people influenced it to be this way, it just happened i guess and now I can't fix it, I don't have the energy to fix it. I've given up, I will never be good enough for myself. I will always hate myself. I want to try but I don't have anymore hope to try. I don't see my future
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Silly Unheard and Unsaid Thoughts
RandomHello , my name is Baylee and this is basically A "story" of just random unspoken and unsaid thoughts I have grouped together. I don't really expect or need anyone to be reading this but if you do Hello!!
