𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐞 // 𝐞𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐧𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

4

"Okay everyone, welcome back to another great year at Hawkins high, for our new students we are so glad you are here with us." She said giving another bright smile.

"Now, when I call your name please stand up and introduce yourself to the class." She said taking her pencil and looking down at her list.
I do not want to do this.

She started naming off names of my classmates. I waited, getting more anxious as she made her way down the list. Finally she got to my name.

"Y/n Hargrove, please stand up and introduce yourself to the class."

It felt like my legs were gonna cave in.
"Hi, I'm y/n Hargrove, I started attending Hawkins last year and I'm gonna be on the cheer team this school year." I said trying to maintain my composure and not give into the urge to crawl under the desk and hide from everyone.

I look at everybody and none of them broke eye contact with me. They just stared blankly. I stood there for a moment in awkward silence before taking my seat again. Then the whispers started.

"She's gotten worse since the funeral." I heard.
"She must be so scared to be here now that Billy's gone."

I don't understand why people are so negative. I lowered my head and laid it on my desk trying to hide from everyone else in the room. I know it wasn't working because I could still feel their eyes on me. I started thinking about Billy, how he would've talked to me today. How he would've driven me and max to school.

I started thinking about him in his car, smoking a cigarette. The smoke pouring out from his mouth. I remember constantly telling him how gross they smelled. But if I mentioned it he would purposely blow it in my face because he thought it was funny and then he would laugh while he watched me cough my lungs up.

Next thing I know I hear the bell ring.
I must've fell asleep.

I don't know why but it's hard for me to sleep at the house, I don't know if it's because I'm worried about dad coming into my bedroom and just taking his anger out on me now that Billy is gone or what but I don't feel safe. Or since what max has told me. I don't believe her but it's made me have nightmares.

The rest of the day seemed to go by pretty fast, I didn't really care to focus since we were really just introducing ourselves. I don't care to know any of these people and I don't care to remember them.

I was walking down the hall fixing to enter the lunchroom when I saw Chrissy, walking into the lunchroom. I was gonna try and catch up with her but I quickly decided to make a detour and headed for the bathroom.

When I walked in all i could hear was the drip of a faucet.
I took my backpack off and set it on the rack.
I went over to the sink and started touching up my makeup that I promised to Chrissy I would wear for the first day. Of course it had to be school colors.

I ran my fingers over my face touching up the spots that looked bad and trying to fix them. I took a deep breath and realized that was the best it was gonna get. I turn around and head to a stall. Just as I hear it click, I hear the door to the bathroom open. No voices. Just the sound of shoes walking across the tiles.

I don't know why but I hold my breath.
"Look it's y/n's backpack." I hear as they walk in.
"y/n, I know you're in here." Someone says in a sing songy voice.
"Go away." I say harshly, hoping that they would just leave me alone.
"I just wanted you to know something.." one of the people says.
"The whole school is glad your brother is dead." I feel my cheeks turn red hot and my eyes started to fill with tears.

"do you think he was drunk when he got in that car crash, or was he just so sick of having you as a sister, that he killed himself?" The group bursted out in laughter.

I just stayed quiet. I could feel my throat close up.
Next thing I know, the door in front of me receives a harsh kick.
"What do you think y/n?" they waited for an answer.
"Please just leave me alone." I said trying to get them to leave.
"We're gonna have fun this year y/n, believe me."
That was the last thing they said before I heard them leave the bathroom.

I let out a sigh. I don't know why people would blame me for what Billie did but I understood. I unlock the latch and open the stall only to see my backpack is turned upside down in the garbage can.

I go over to the trash can and start collecting my things out of it. Thankfully, the trash was only filled with a few paper towels and nothing really nasty. I finally get all my stuff out of the trash and I zip my bag back up.

I wash my hands and shake them off and wipe the excess on my pants.
I don't wanna deal with any more paper towels. At least there's still plenty of time to eat lunch.

I grab my bag and head towards the lunch room. The straggling students in the halls must've heard what happened because everyone was watching me.
I just ducked my head and pretended like they weren't looking.
I swear if another person looks at me like that, I will knock them out.
I quickly make my way to the lunchroom and open the doors.