TRUTH- AN ILLUSION

Chapter 55

"Matlab tum ek Alien ho" She speaks slowly while her eyes are fixed on the bed as if she is in trance.I open my mouth to say yes but before word can escape from my mouth she again speaks.

"Meri shaadi ek Alien se hui hai" This time her voice become louder than before .Her body again starts trembling while her breath becomes uneven.

She has returned back in her Panic state despite of taking medicine which keeps the nerve calm.
"Tum sab Alien ho ....Alien ho.....Maaa....Papa . bhi alien hai....tum Alien ho ......Maa...Alien hai "  She stammers while speaking but what make me tensed that her breath has stuck upward .She is not exhaling and just keep blabbering .

"Ananya " I ran toward her and make her look myself . This time she doesn't go back or tried to stop me .Her eyes are looking at me but seems to be out of focus as if she can't look at me.

"Ananya" I patted on her cheeks attempting to bring her back but she keeps blabbering.""Anu saaas lo . Anu pleaseeee." I tried to make her hear myself but my voice died between her continuous blabbering.

No no no. This can't happen . Everything will be fine .My worst nightmare can't be converted into reality.This can't happen.

"Aaaanuuuuuu" I shouted without realising how loud my voice is ? But that doesn't effect her .

"Ballu Kya .." I heard worried voice of my father behind me but I don't look back.I just want to make her normal .

In no time my parents are standing beside me and are trying to calm her but her condition is like before .I don't realise when my hand losses its strength to touch her and separate itself from her .I am standing behind my parents and looking at Ananya and  my parents who are trying their best to stop this panic attack.

"Aap...sab ....aap sab alien hai.....Sab alien..m...mai.. kya karu ....mai..... Mai....Aap sab alien hai.." Her voice is getting louder with every word.

"Ananya baat suno meri ."My mother is trying to speak between the noise but her voice dies same as mine between scream of Ananya.

"Aaannnaaayaaaaaaaa.Mai Alien nhi huuuuuuu." Shouted my mother louder than I can imagine and unexpectedly Ananya becomes silent instantly.

She looks at my mother without blinking as if trying to process what she has  spoken.

"Mai Alien nhi hu" My Mother softly  speaks again pressurising each and every word while Ananya keeps looking at her flabbergasted.Her breath is now normal but her body is still trembling .

As she gets relaxed ,I loses my strength to stand up in front of her.I turn toward the door and stormed out from the room without turning back.

Her heavy breath,her trembling figure is still in front of my eyes as if it is happening just now.I stops in my room and holds the top of the Chair to support my body .

I and only I am responsible for her condition .What I have made her.I have ripped a beautiful ,Kind lovely and  fearless soul. Girl who was not scared from death is now afraid from life.I closes my eyes struggling to stop those unwanted memories to come in my mind .Years has passed but those memories are still fresh in my mind as if time is not able to sediment dust on it.Those memories when.....

I feel a hand on my shoulder which bought me back in the present. I know whose hand is this .My father gently hold me from my shoulder and make me look himself .

I looks in his eyes which is carrying infinite love and affection toward me despite of the my reality , despite of all those wounds given by me.How can someone love a son like me.

"Sab thik ho jayega Ballu" He said wiping my tears .Then I realised that tears are flowing on my cheeks may be since then when I am trying to calm Ananya but I didn't notice it.

"Kaise  thik ho jayega Papa . Sab Khatam ho gya" I managed to speak while sobbing ." Maine kaha tha ....maine kaha tha ki... mujhe shaadi nhi karni ... per aap dono nhi maane .Aapne kaha ki hum Ananya ko sach kabhi pta nhi lagne denge .Usse sach.." I turns back as I am not able to look in his eyes which immediately reflects pain at my accusations  but I chooses to ignore it  like most of the children who just blames their parents for complications in their life without thinking about the pain which their parent will feel after being accused for miserable life of their children despite of giving their best to make their life better.I  does not choose to be different.

"Usse sach pta chal gya Papa .Maine koshish ki, apni... apni puri koshish ki ....Usse sach chhupa rahe issliye Uske nazar me ek murderer banna accept kar liya . Uski aankhon me apne liye nafrat manjoor kar liya per dar......" I speaks while recalling that moment when she blamed me for the murders .She wanted to hear that her accusations is false.She was begging   in front of me to deny from the accusation .If I had denied I know she would have believed me despite of the fact that what was in front of her is totally contradictory.Her trust on me was that strong

But what would have I said . That I am not a murderer but an alien for this planet. How can I say that ? What will I explain to her?  So I decided to accept all accusation.Yes it was painful to be rude in front of her .It was painful to break her trust and more than that It was painful to see her in pain. But It was less painful than seeing her in this condition.

I tried my best to avoid this situation .I was damn confident that she will never got to know my identity . How can a Person living on planet  like Earth can imagine life of not another planet but another Universe is there on the Earth.But Circumstances made her face THE TRUTH.

I don't know what will I do .I don't know What can I do.But I am sure that I am going away from her life.I know that step will not make her life easy .She will have to face society and before that She will have to face her family and most important her Mother .It is not going to be easy for her but I know that she will face them bravely . Facing them will be much easier for her than facing me. AN ALIEN ,A BEAST WHO DOESN'T DESERVE THE BEAUTY.

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Updating it after a long time .

Dev Kaun se memory ki baat kar raha tha.

Janane ke liye padhiye next chapter.

Precap- "SMITA'S LIFE AND DEV'S CHILDHOOD.