The Fall

Drunk in love

Same evening: 

The air is summer-evening chilly and the sky is full of bright stars. You guys are sitting beside eachother in some old outdoor chairs with your feet resting on the railing of Eddies little terrasse on his trailor, looking at the stars. He has lit a little lantern that is placed on the railing and Eddie have rolled you up in a warm blanket. You have borrow some of his boxers and a tshirt which is exactly what he is wearing too. 

E: It's like i can still feel you on me- he says, sounding slightly amazed of how fantastic you make him feel.

Y/n: And i can still feel you inside me- you say laughing. He looks at you and sighs with a smirk looking like he's having flashbacks to a couple of minutes ago, when you were banging it out on the couch:)

E: Sexy- he says, smiling. 

E: Wait here for a moment, i'll be right back- he says, and runs into the trailor to get something. You hear something rumble inside before Eddie comes out with a bottle of wine, some glasses and some cigarettes. 

E: Here you go sweetheart- he says smiling  and hands you a glass of wine. You're surprised he even has wine in his home, when he looks more like a beer type. 

E: I know, yeah i actually like wine a lot more than beer- he says, almost reading your thoughts. 

He lits up a cigarette and takes his first puff. The smoke elegantly and slowly falls out of his mouth when he exhales, and he closes his eyes, enjoying that first whiff of nicotine. He hands you the cigarette and you take a puff too. Somehow the thought of his lips having touched this cigarette gives you butterflies even though you totally touched his lips yourself. His lips. You've never felt something more hypnotizing and relaxing than his lips on yours and the feeling of his body melting into yours feels like he almost absorbs you. You look at him staring at the sky with his hair hangning down his shoulders like a waterfall. He's the most beautiful man you've ever seen. God, I wish i could just be with him forev- ....fuck- you think. Am I falling in love? No.. He's just a crush or something. It'll pass. But what if it doesn't? What if i'm fully deeply in love with this man and i don't even know if he likes me that much too and i don't want to loose him. -You start overthinking and slightly panicking.

E: Hey, you alright?- he says concerned noticing you look a little uncomfortable and he places a hand on your thigh. 

E: Here, drink this- he says and hands you a glass of wine. You drink and take a deep breath. 

E: Are you better now?- he says and keeps stroking your thigh amking you a bit more nervous.

Y/n: Yeah thanks, i'm alright Eddie- you say smiling at him.

E: Ok good, what happened?- he says and looks at you concerned.

Y/n: Idk just thoughts- you say, trying to brush it off.

E: Well, thoughts can be scary too- he says smiling- tell me what you're thinking about? He says, trying to help you calm down.

Y/n: I can't say, Eddie- you say looking into the ground. 

E: Why not? Is it something i've done or..?- He says scared that he might have crossed a boundarie or something like that. 

Y/n: No no, you're good. I just uhh..- you hesitate to answer scared of what he might think if you tell him. 

E: You can tell me everyhing y/n. I'll be here for you- he says calm and supportive. The words he speaks holds so much comfort when they're spoken from his mouth. His voice and his facial expressions just make you so peaceful. 

Y/n: I think.. or i'm scared that I might... uh.- You studder. Eddie looks at you quietly to give you space to think. You pause for a second considering if you should tell him or not. Fuck it..