𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐁𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐊𝐢𝐝 , 𝘚𝘩𝘢𝘸𝘯 𝘔𝘪𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘦𝘭𝘴

𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐘 𝐎𝐍𝐄.

𝐉𝐮𝐧𝐞 1998
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𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐲𝐚'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕

Two weeks have passed since that dreadful day I'd like to not think about but I can't help it, every time I hear the song "Without you" by Mariah Carey I can't help but play over my break up over and over again in my head like some sad type of montage. This break up has really taken a toll on me, It's so hard to even show up to work and keep a straight face on when all I want to do is cry.

I'm currently sitting on the steps leading up to my front door, smoking a cigarette. It's kind of my stress relief, as I take out my lighter someone snatched it.

"Hey." I Said

I looked up and there she was, my mother. Now I've haven't smoked in front of my mother since that time she caught me smoking with my friends at the park when we were 17, but here I am at 26 caught red handed.

"Sonya Elizabeth Sawyer, spit take cigarette out your mouth right now." Laurie Said

"Nice to see you too Ma." I Said

"Sonya." Laurie Said

"I'm taking it out, taking it out okay." I toss the cigarette on the floor "See gone, you happy now that was my last one." I Said

"God you smoked the whole box, what did I tell you kids about smoking that crap." Laurie Said

"Yeah tell me about it, I've been hearing it since 88." I Said, rolling my eyes.

"Sweetheart look at you, your a mess..you smell and your hair my god when was the last time you showered?" Laurie Asked

"Mom I got home yesterday okay, I was just too exhausted to shower and too sad." I Said

"You see all I heard right there was just an excuse." Laurie Said

"So what made you drive all the way over here?" I Asked

"Well I was speaking with your sister, you know just checking on her and making sure she's settled in her new house. Then the topic came to you, and she mentioned how you've been lately." Laurie Said

"Oh you mean how fine I've been." I Said, bluntly.

"Sonya I'm your mother and I know when my children aren't okay, I know it's been two weeks since you and Shawn broke up. And I know you told me why but honey...there's more to the story right?" Laurie Said

"Yeah it is, mom I haven't been completely honest with you and dad well everyone when it came to Shawn." I Said

"Okay then what is it?" Laurie Asked

"Mom..Shawn has an addition problem." I Said

"What?" Laurie Said

"A couple months ago before we got together he came clean to me about his addiction with drugs, and he promised me that he would quit and so he did. He was clean for three months up until that fucking match at the rumble." I Said

"So I'm assuming that after the rumble, that's when he relapsed." I nodded, she sighed "How bad did it get?" Laurie Asked

"Mom it was bad and I mean really bad, there were times when I felt like his mother instead of his girlfriend. I think the worst night was when he threw up in my lap." I Said