You can call me emo (boyxboy)

New beginnings

I have to say, when Amanda wants to be on time, she's on time. My flight leaves at 9pm and here we are sitting outside the airport at 4pm.
    "Mom do I really have to do this?.. I don't know this man and he doesn't know me .." I said looking up at the women I've dreamed of leaving but now finally given the chance, I'm scared.
  "Tear, Jamie is a good man he promised me he would raise you well and enroll you in school as soon as you get there, I can't handle you anymore it's just too much for me" my mom said with a sigh, she genuinely sounded upset about leaving me but Amanda can act this why when she sleeps through her favorite television program ..
I just sat there in silence, Amanda slowly started to tap the steering wheel of her car drawing my attention to her
   "Tear I need you to get out of my car and go catch your plane" my mom said sternly. Whenever she gave me orders she was stern
   "Mom it's 430... my flights at 9 can't I just stay with you alittle while longer" I was embarrassed even talking to Amanda like this but after all she was my mother and she raised me and I loved her.. she may not love me like I love her but that's alright, I'm used to not being loved or cared for. My mom abuses me, yes but she's a alcoholic and the booze makes her do it, I know it's not her..
   "Hun" she took a deep breathe in "I do not want you in my life anymore, I need you to get out of my vehicle and get all your stuff and just walk away, I do not want to see you or hear from you ever. Do you understand? I already told your father this as well" by this time she wasn't even looking at me, she was looking at her hands
   "Mom I know I'm a awful kid but I love you! I know you love me and I want to stay with you! I'll handle the beatings, I'm scared.. I'm so fucking scared" hyperventilating started out of no where. A hand was slowly placed on mine.
   "Do you know why I named you Tear" I looked my mother dead in the face
   "I caused a lot of tears?" I asked hardly loud enough for her to hear me.
   "Because you've caused so much pain and tears in this family. You were a disgrace from the minute you were born and the fact I signed those papers for you... " she trailed off
    "Mom? Signed what papers for me" what was she getting at here...
   "Nothing , get the fuck out" she yelled. I jumped slightly she was just talking in one of the calmest voices I've ever heard her use and now she's yelling.. nothing new.
With not another word I opened the door and removed myself from her vehicle, I don't even know why I wanted to still be in there anyway. I opened the trunk and removed me 3 small suitcases Amanda let me back before dragging me to is airport. The second I took my stuff out , my dear old mother booked it with her trunk open. Couldn't even wait for me to close it. I turned and look at the airport in front of me, took a deep breathe in and just smiled

   "Here's to new beginnings"....

Let's hope Jamie is nothing like Amanda ...