BLISS

❛Thirteen༉‧₊˚

"I'm in need of a savior but I'm not asking for favors"

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B L I S S

I wouldn't exactly say I regretted it because to be sincere, I very much enjoyed it even though at the back of my mind I had a lot of nagging thoughts. It just that thought of being hurt all over when I opened up to someone that scared me shitless.

I knew Liam meant it when he said he was going to come in the evening today, so when the day finally got to an end and I heard a sound on my window, I was not really surprised.

I looked out of my window and mouthed I was going to be outside shortly with my hands demonstrating. He nodded a little after.

We both rested silently on his bike for about a minute before we both spoke simultaneously.

"I thought..." I began at the same time Liam said "have you...". We both chuckled at this before Liam told me go first.

'I thought you were going to climb through my window as those cliche guys does,' I said and laughed at the end.

"Well I was going to try that but I don't think I can beat the of risk breaking my neck. Your room window is a little too high." He said while I laughed in response.

"So...what were you going to say?" I asked. I mean we couldn't keep ignoring the elephant in the room. Well...outside even if I knew the reason why he was here. We both knew.

"Oh, yeah. I wanted to ask if you had been purposely ignoring my test messages and calls. So have you?" He asked facing me now.

"I actually don't know what to say. This is all new to me. I don't mean relationship wise because I have dated few guys,  but this," I said while gesturing between us.

"Well, we could take it slow. Whatever it is that is between us but I'm sure as hell you felt what I felt that night."

I did but I'm scared as shit. I'm sure you might say I should fucking grow up and move on but that trauma I experienced at that young age is not something to let go just like that. I needed to fully trust him or any other person to finally open up and accept whatever it is they brought to the table.

"I am not ready for any sort of relationship right now, Liam. I need to focus on school and plan my future."

"I understand but I want you to give us a chance and if it doesn't work out, I will go away from your life permanently. I promise."

He looked so sincere but the fear of him getting hurt in the process concerned me a lot.

"I don't want you to give out hundred percent effort for this to work out only for you to be receiving fifty percent in return from me because that's not really fair."

"You don't have to worry about that, I actually don't mind. And as I said earlier, if it doesn't work out I will leave you alone."

I really enjoyed our heart to heart conversation and that we had come to like an agreed conclusion.

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Immediately after our discussion, after briefly hugging our selves goodbye which I must add I loved, I sent him hello with a puppy eye emoji to which he sent a funny ass GIF immediately.

What's there not to like about Liam anyways? Is it that deep voice of his, or that intense eyes that always makes me want to run for the hills, or the fact that he is so mature in conversations and the likes, or that he is so understanding and patient, or is it that lips that I have come to love recently? If I didn't know better, I would have said he is perfect.

"Who is that boy that made you rush out of the house for over an hour plus ago," The voice of my mum startled me from the instagram reel I was watching.

"No one, just a friend," I replied absentmindedly.

"Well, the way he was looking at you and the way you were nervously avoiding his eyes says a lot than just friends," she air quoted the last part with her hands, laughing.

"Mum!!, were you watching us the whole time? Because that's creepy as hell," I groaned as I half yelled.

Still laughing she added "You are going to say I told you so."

Knowing my mum too well that she was going to tease me all the way, I opted to go upstairs. Immediately I got into my bedroom, I jumped into the comfort of my bed, nestling my face in between my pillows.

"Aren't you going to eat dinner before sleeping?" my mum yelled from downstairs.

"I'm coming," I yelled back resuming scrolling on my  instagram feeds.

Today was so eventful especially the last part of the day even Olivia had noticed I was not my usual depressed/Lazy self this morning being I had always hated and complained about every single Monday mornings of the school week.

It was actually thanks to the fact that I was anxious and concerned about how my conversation with Liam would go and eventually it actually went well.

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I'm sorry I have not updated since like forever, I have been a little busy plus I lost inspiration to write. I swear I must have seen you guys last night with pitch forks outside my window😹.

I hope you accept this little peace offering and don't forget to Vote and comment as usual💙

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