I got this idea from my friend most of the words used are hers. I changed the name and pronouns as she was telling me about this guy she liked. I asked her to use it and she said I could. kiiaaab. Here is Mga Liham.
Dear Ricky
From the first moment I laid my eyes on you I knew that you were going to be someone I would always remember in my life.
I'm not one who believes in fate or destiny, but I have to say, there is something about you that makes me feel that way. You are so different than anyone else I have ever met and for whatever reason, you have gravitated towards me as well. We have been inseparable since that first day we met.
You were the boy who I couldn't stop thinking about, even after months of being apart from each other.
I'm sure you've heard of the popular saying "if you love someone, let them go." Well, if you can't live without a soulmate you might want to look elsewhere for your happiness.
But what if there were no one else out there that meant so much more to you? That could change everything.
It's almost too easy to get lost in the feeling of love at first sight. And that's exactly how I fell for you.
We became fast friends. We clicked and we bonded over our past experiences of having been through tough times. I wanted to do something. I wanted to make my move. But what could I possibly do when you already made your choice and I just didn't seem like enough?
I tried to ignore the hurt feelings I felt. After all, what kind of person wouldn't enjoy a happy ending? So instead of dwelling on those emotions I began to concentrate on other things, on trying my best to forget you.
But I never really could. It seems like I kept finding a song on the radio that reminded me of you, or someone said your name but refer to another person with the same name.
I thought that maybe it was time to try looking for a new love interest, someone who would appreciate my skills and interests as much as I appreciated theirs.
I didn't really know what I was hoping for, maybe to forget about you, but I couldn't, I struggled, I felt lost and confused. And yet, still the pain persisted.
I couldn't love someone with a girlfriend even when it felt like you had chosen her over me. I had come to terms with that long ago.
The day I finally accepted that wasn't possible, I tried to avoid seeing you . You were so busy with you own love life; your own future, that I never heard of you again.
I felt bad, because I hadn't given up, but then I realized that I didn't need you anymore. So I moved on and tried forgetting about you .
But even when I started to work hard, I never quite managed to find my place in the world. Not when I remembered everything about that fateful day.
The universe was testing us too much and I couldn't handle all of it. I needed space.
Seeing you again made my heart flutter and face warm up, but seeing you with her just made my blood boil. I hated myself for feeling jealous, for thinking you chose her over me.
I couldn't bring myself to speak to you either. I avoided you like the plague, for a while then I decided that it couldn't hurt to talk to you.
Being with you now is amazing, having you in my life is the most beautiful thing that's ever happened to me. Every single part of yoj. Every time you smile at me, every time you make me laugh, every time you hold my hand.
My heart beats so loudly that I can barely hear anything else. My heart races everytime you touche me. You make me smile and blush. When you say something sweet I melt and blush, when you say something funny my heart skips a beat. When you kiss me, my whole body goes numb. It hurts.
Every single moment I am with you is worth it.The pain is nothing compared to the happiness I feel. Seeing you smile, hearing your voice, hearing you laugh, it's the highlight of my day.
I'm falling for you, harder than before and I don't want to let go. I won't allow any chance for the universe to take this away from me.
I want to keep loving you, to see you every day of my life, to see you happy and loved. I can't bear to see you sad or unhappy. Because if I can't see your smile, I can't see me smile.
So I'm giving up. If there was an option to give up on something, I'd take it a thousand times over. The thought of losing you terrifies me more than death itself.
Ricky you are the most perfect boy for me. If I had to choose between anyone in this world, I would pick you. If I could have, I'd trade anything in the world for the chance to spend eternity with you. You mean more to me than my own life. There is nothing that I will do that would make you leave me, Ricky . Nothing. I'll do everything in my power to protect you from harm and let nothing happen to you.
You may think that I'm being dramatic. I'm sorry Ricky , but I swear on my life I will fight tooth and nail to ensure your safety. If that means losing myself then I gladly accept that decision. You are the only one for me, Ricky. I promise.
I'm done living in the shadows, I'm done running away from everything that threatens my happiness. No one is going to take that away from me, ever.
I will fight for you, I will die for you. I will never give you up. I'm happy I found you, my other half.
I can't remember where I heard this, but I've heard that one soul is decided in half given to one body and another, you are that half. I think you're a little bit bigger than mine.
When you find yourself you will find who you are destined to be with.
I hope we can grow old together, you're already part of my family.
Thank you for making me fall in love with you.Thank you for making me realize how truly happy I am with you. Thank you for loving me and showing me that the love I have in my heart for you is unconditional.
And thank you for always believing in me, always trusting me when things seemed hopeless. Thank you for being there through thick and thin and every single moment of every single day. You are the light in my darkness. You are the sun in my dark clouds.
You are the sun in my sky.
You are my moon.
Your bright and beautiful smile keeps shining through the darkness that surrounds me and lights my days up.
Your hands are my anchor and I cannot imagine my life without them. They're always there, waiting for me to reach out and hold onto them.
Without you I will surely drown. Without you I would never survive.
Your warmth spreads through me whenever I'm cold.
Whenever I'm sad. Your always there by my side.
Thank you for helping me believe in the good in people, for reminding me that even though they can be horrible, even though their faults can be obvious, they're still human.
You're the only thing that makes me feel good.
You bring me peace of mind.
You help me smile.
You make me feel alive.
You are the one true thing in my life that I never thought I would ever have.
No matter how many times we say goodbye, we both know that one day we will meet again.
In a sky full of a billion stars, you found the dimmest star in the sky and shared your light.
Thank you so much for bringing the sun back into my life.
I will cherish each moment we have had together till my last breath. Even if we don't stay together "till death draw us apart." You will always have a place in my heart, a place where my heart belongs to you alone. And I will always be yours, for as long as you will have me.
Mahal kita lagi
Love Yours truly
Nini
Ricky's POV:
Tears are streaming down my face when I am done reading the letter. "I love you Nini. Forever and always. I am sorry for the pain I caused you when I was with Lily.
I never saw a future with her. She was just there and as I thought I wasn't good enough to be with you, I went with her." I say
"It is okay Ricky. Thank you for everything. Mahal kita lagi."
"Mahal kita Lagi."
"Nini." I say after awhile. She responds with a 'mhhm'. "I fell in love with you, like you fall asleep, slowly then all at once." I say
