How Did We Get Here?

Bad Decisions

Sally Face's POV

Monday's are always the hardest. You just get used to sleeping in and BAM! You got to wake up at six all over again. I got ready for the day and decided to wear something nice, after spending the weekend hating myself, I could use the self-esteem so I decided on low pigtails, a black sweater under a yellow overall skirt with some hightops, not too attention-seeking, while still seeming cuter than normal. I know shouldn't but I hoped Travis would see me, even though he's a bully, he is a good kisser.

I met Larry, and Todd at the bus stop, and when I said hi, they both turned to look at me and then looked at each other and nodded. "Sup, Sal, like the fit." Larry said quickly, and Todd nodded in agreement while looking away.

"I get it, I'm cute." I said in exasperation, and they looked at me again.

"Very cute." Larry said matter-of-factly. I chuckled at his response, I know Larry and Todd didn't like me like that but it's nice to think I can make the boys blush. The bus arrives a few minutes later and we all pile into the back. Once we get there I anxiously start tapping my feet. I shouldn't care but I'm hoping that Travis would get on, his stop is next, I don't know why I care if he sees me he is probably just gonna bully me or stare at me angrily, but I guess I hope that he isn't mad, or that he realized it's okay to be gay, or that he doesn't think my face is horrifying. 

The bus slows to a stop and opens the doors, and just like usual, Travis is wearing his normal outfit, a purple sweater with shorts. I noticed as he walked down the middle of the bus that there are bandages under his shorts, though, I got distracted by his face, he only made eye contact with me for a second, but I couldn't take my eye off of him. I noticed something purple on his neck, I must have caused that. Shit.

I wondered if he realized it was there, probably not since he didn't seem to be trying to hide it. Finally, he sat down a seat ahead of me with his bag in his lap and the bus began to move again. I tried to distract myself by playing on my phone, but I couldn't stop thinking about that night.

Larry, Todd, and I got off the bus and started heading toward our lockers to meet Ash. I saw Travis walking towards his locker too, but he went straight past it and into the bathroom, I took this as an opportunity and let my friends know I had to piss before leaving. 

He wasn't by the sinks when I walked in so I assumed he was in a stall, so I began making my way down seeing if any were locked until I reached the last one, it had to be him. I took a deep breath and lightly knocked on the stall, "Travis? It's um, me, Sal. I know you probably don't want to see me, but can we, um, talk?" I heard him jump and scramble for a moment before he responded.

"Of course, I wouldn't want to see you, flamer! Can't a guy have some privacy in the bathroom!?" He shouted, shit, I knew I shouldn't have come, but maybe if I push he will drop the act.

I sighed before answering his question, "Well, maybe you should have thought of that before making out with me." I say calmly, that should do it. He started stuttering, before unlocking the stall door, and staring at me.

"Shut. Up." He said sternly. He looked like he might either start screaming or start crying. I'm not sure what I'm expecting to get out of this conversation.

"What, are you gonna run away again? Make. Me." I said with the same energy back, and just like that, he punched me in the gut. It took the wind out of me and I fell to the floor, he kicked me a couple of times while I was on the ground, and then lifted me up against the bathroom wall. He looked me in the eye and pulled my mask off, he pushed his lips against mine while trying to force his tongue into my mouth. I didn't know how to react, should I kiss back, or push him away? He did just beat me up, now he is kissing me, I'm so confused. I ended up wrapping my legs around him again and giving in to the sensation, as he carried me into the stall and locked the door. 

He put a hand on my cheek before letting me stand on my own "God, why do you have to be so hot, of course, you had to wear a skirt. Fucking tease." He scoffed, then he started unbuckling his pants.

"Sal?" I heard Larry's voice coming from the entrance of the bathroom. I looked at Travis who immediately put his hand over my mouth as he looked me in the eye. I grabbed his arm and gently pulled it down.

I responded to Larry, "Dude, can't a guy take a shit in peace?" I said jokingly.

"Sorry dude, just making sure you didn't fall in or anything," Larry said while laughing at my response before leaving. I looked back at Travis who seem distraught. I reached down for his shorts and continued to pull them down, but I left his underwear on. I kneeled down to look at the bandage on his thigh and saw the stripes of dried blood seeping threw the bandage. I made eye contact with him again.

I started to say something but was interrupted by Travis, "Don't ask... please." He was desperate, I knew when to back off, so I continued where I left off and started pulling off his underwear, but he stopped me, "No, I shouldn't have kissed you, i-it's wrong, I shouldn't like boys." He started to pull his pants up. 

"Travis, it is okay to like boys. I know your religion says otherwise, but trust me, you won't go to hell for kissing another boy. Wouldn't you rather be happy loving who you want to love, rather than feeling terrible all the time?" I questioned, I hoped he wouldn't punch me again, I will definitely have a bruise from it. He was going to respond but the bell rang. "Shit," I said before unlocking the stall door and grabbing my mask, then I turned back to him and said, "We are not done with this conversation." Before leaving him in the stall and heading to class.