My Baby

so I was thinking

"so I was thinking" I say out of the blue while me and Tyler laying in my bed waiting for Ryder to wake up.

"Uh-oh, don't do that, it hurts you, doesn't it" he says with fake weariness. I roll my eyes and smack him in the arm "ouch" he fakes being hurt. "Anyway what were you thinking bellissima?"
(Gorgeous)

"I was thinking we should start on thinking of names"

"perfetta, what were you thinking?" He asks.
(Perfect)

"Well, since they are twins I want there names is be similar but not to similar" I say and he nods.

"How about I name the boy and you name the girl" he said and I nod. "We should also make sure they go along with Ryder's name" he said and I agree... I love how even tho I'm having his biological babies, he still involves Ryder in like he is his own.

"Alright for boys I can't decide between Leonardo or Luca... Leonardo means brave lion in Italian and Luca mean the bringer of light in Italian... What do you think?"

"Well I like the meaning of Leonardo, but I feel that's to close to Leo's name and he would take to much joy into that" I say and we both chuckle, he nods his head in agreement. "But in all honesty, I love the name Luca".

"Me too, so it's settled for our boy we just need a middle name for our son... Got any ideas?"

"Well... What about Romano for his middle name? Luca Romano Gates"

"Damn, that's a powerful name I feel like... I love it! So any girl names you like?"

"I actually also have 2 I can't choose from, but I have the perfect middle name. Ok so the first one I love is Bella it means beautiful, the other name I love is Luna and that means moon. What do you think?" I ask him.

"To be honest I think Luna goes with Luca better" he says which I agree. "So what's her full name gonna be?" He asks me.

"Luna Valentina Gates it means strong moon". I say

"Luca Romano and Luna Valentina Gates" he says and looks at me with approval in his eyes... "I love them."

I whisper "me too"

He leans in close just before he could reach my lips with his we heard Ryder saying "mamamama" and Tyler looks at me and says "he said his first word?" And I nodded. I went to Ryder's room and picked him up out of the crib, I set him down and he ran to my room. He went to my bed and as soon as Tyler went to pick him up Ryder yelled "dadadadadada" Tyler froze and so did I. I didn't know why Ryder said that, I mean I know Tyler has been around a lot, but I never talked to Ryder about Tyler being his daddy. I hear Tyler tell Ryder " yes buddy, it's me" I hear him mutter to him happily "it's daddy" if I wasn't in love with him before I am now.

Tyler never treated Ryder differently even tho he was the result of a rape. He knew Ryder was my everything and now I have 2 more little things to become my everything. But these babies were made from friendship not rape... I wish Ryder came from a good situation but that didn't change the fact that he is my son, my baby boy, my savior.

I came back in from Ryder's from and saw Tyler playing with Ryder being the airplane. I stand there watching as I lean against my bedroom door frame. He is really good with him, but sadly that thought ended when I got caught staring.

"Mommy's a creeper, isn't she my little man?" Tyler asks Ryder and Ryder smiles and claps. I chuckle at there antics.

Tyler then got a phone call, he answered it, I grabbed Ryder and started playing with him. I see Tyler standing up while hanging the phone up. "Hey we got a lead on The Knights... I gotta go la mia bella principessa" he said kissing the side of my neck and giving Ryder a kiss on the cheek.
(My beautiful princess)

He then left out the door... Hopefully he doesn't get hurt, but I also don't wanna bring two babies into this world with them still being out there, it has been hard enough with just keeping Ryder safe... Now I have to keep three babies safe if nothing can be done.

I now have to make some dinner for me and Ryder. I made some Mac and cheese with hotdogs. And as usual I put the leftovers in the fridge cause i know someone will eat it.

I made some chocolate milk for me and Ryder, then we ate in peace. After dinner it was time for Ryder to sleep for the night. I put him in some dinosaur footies with dinosaur slippers.

I then turn his radio on so he can listen to something while he goes to sleep. Ryder is like me with that. I need something on to be able to sleep weather it's a TV, or the radio, or even a fan, I need to hear something so I can sleep.

I turn my fan on that's by my bed, and lay down, I finally go to sleep which seemed like hours. I woke up to a knocking on my window.

I grab the first thing I see which is a wooden baseball bat. I look out my window but I didn't see anyone, but I heard footsteps heading to the front door.

I go to my front door and I see a black shadow. I swing the door open real fast and I swing the bat at the purp. A hand caught the bat, I look at the Purp and it's Tyler looking at me with widened eyes. "What the hell Alison, what were you trying to get a home run with my head?" He asks.

I mutter a quick sorry and head back inside. "Damn neonata you looked hot but you still shouldn't hurt your baby daddy" he says with a chuckle I just roll my eyes at the stupid choice of words.
(Babygirl)

"You hungry baby daddy?" I ask, and he nods with a chuckle. See told you the leftovers would get eaten. I heated the left over Mac and cheese with hotdogs and gave him some chocolate milk with it. He thanked me and started eating.

"Do how did it go with the Knights?" I ask and he looks over at me and says "they wanna have a meeting and sort this hole shit-loade out" he says and I nod. After he gets done eating he looks like he is about ready to fall asleep any minute. "You wanna come and lay in an actual bed?" I ask him and he nods lazily. Of course all the guest rooms are all used up so I bring him up to my bedroom. He lays down and I layers down next to him. He wrapped his arms around me and suddenly I feel all my worry's go away and I feel safe and secure in his arms.

I then drift off to a well needed sleep feeling everything but negativity.

And that's what my pregnant ass needed.