Mover

I Never Fit In

I never fit in.

We moved again. But it's ok. It's not the first time we've had to move. But another new school. A bigger school. Great. From the things I've heard there mostly jocks. It's ok though. The phrase brings so many memories. It's ok. So much weight to such small words. How?
It's the first day for me. Only thing is it's half way threw the year already. Awesome. I will have no clue what's going on or I will be ahead of them. Either way it will be miserable. At lease I have ear buds and my music. The only thing that keeps me going or at least it feels like that.

"Just breath and act like you belong," mom said as we arrived at the school.

"Ok!"said my cheerleader sister Amber.
I said nothing though. I don't want to go in there and have people stair at me. I will stick out like a sore thumb. Amber will fit in and make friends right away. Like she does everywhere. But me, I'm wearing black skinny jeans and a black shirt that has a big skull on it, my leather jacket, and my leather boots.

But I've just got to suck it up.

As I walk in the door, the smell of cheap perfume and sweat permeate from the gym as I walk by. Amber is already talking to some girls wearing pink skirts. Cheerleaders no dought. Of course, she points right at me! Why? Do you not understand that I don't want to be here in the first place. Come on!

I walked away as fast as possible when WAM! I run into some guy and of course first bell. Amidst the chaos of getting to first hour, the guy I ran into and I are just sitting there.

"I'm sorry" I said with out thinking. I say that a lot so now it has no meaning.

"It's ok, here let me help you with that" he said. Woah. His voice is amazing.

"I'm ok, it's fine. I just...why don't you get to your first hour. But can you point me to the office" I say sounding like a stuttering fool.

"Sure it's this way; let me walk you."he smiled at me. And wow that's a smile.

"It's ok,"

"No I ran into you it's the least I can do."

"I guess" I say nervously grabbing all my papers.

We walked together for about 2 minutes when he says,"you don't talk much do you?" I've just been staring at the ground this whole time.

"Uh...yeah I guess so" I said.

"Well my name is Jerrod. And yours is?"

"Ellianne" I said quietly. I hate my name. Always miss spelled or 'oh are you from the south?' Or the what? Really?

"Cool name" Jerrod said. Huh? For some one in a school pride sweatshirt he's pretty nice. I'm surprised he's talking to me.

"Thanks"

"So, what do you like Ellianne?"

"Um"

"I get it I'm a jock right and your Emo"

I stopped walking "Excuse me?" I said as I looked at him in utter disbelief

"You know the black cloths and stuff," he said looking confused.

"Um Emo is a type of music,"I corrected

"Oh, ok then here's the office, Ellianne" Jerrod said.

"Uh thanks." I said quietly.

"No problem. If you need any help ask for Jerrod Munchis."

"Ok I will thank you"

"Bye"

"Bye"

As he walked away I turned to the lady at the front desk. She was old probably 60 or so.

"Name" she said unexpectedly.

"Ellianne Heart"

She pointed behind her and the door opened to the office. I walked it the direction that she pointed. Then I saw a sign in with bold letters that said, 'Tony Wayne.' I knocked on the wall because the door was open.

"Come in," he said; he sounded almost angry. I walked in and sat in one of the chairs as he typed on his computer.

Then said, "So your Ellianne Heart?"

"Yes sir" I said frantically not realizing he was talking to me.

"Well here is a map of the school I circled all of your classes," he handed me the map,"and here are the rules, you may notice that piercings and gages are not allowed." He couldn't have been any more obvious. I have a nose ring, a lip ring, and size 0 gages.

"I can't take them out though."

"Why not?" He says sounding irritated.

"I can't take out my gages and I just got my nose and lip pierced," the last 2 were lies. I've had my nose ring for about 2 years and my lip ring for 3 years.

"Well, I guess we will have to bend the rules a bit" he's really mad at me.

This is all I'm new at this so take it easy on me please. Thanks for reading I will try to keep the stories updated weekly. Thanks again for reading. Let me know what you think.