He's What I've Waited For (ManxMan)

I need Him

Hunter(POV)

"Hunter, I'm glad you invited me to come with you to lunch." Robert said. An easy smile spred across my face, "Robert it's no problem I wanted you to come."

He smiled back at me. I love Robert's smile it's sweet and at the same time dazzling. He reached across the table taking my hand in his. His thumb slowly ribbing the back of my hand making small circles on my skin. I didn't know if liked the fact that Robert was trying to make his move on me.......i-it's like, in a way, I'm cheating on Adam. Why did I leave? Why did I not just stay with him? I was so angry-I lost control completely. I hated him and all I cared about was hurting him. At the time I really thought he was evil, but now I feel a strong pull that almost hurts, telling me I should be with him. who am I kidding I don't know why I'm on this date with Robert when I could be with Adam. The one I love. Half of me may fear Adam, but a much bigger, storgger half of me loves him and is telling me I should be with him. I pulled my hand away from Robert's hold.

"I-I'm sorry Robert I just can't do this." I said. His eyes showed the hurt he was feeling from my rejection of him which made me hurt too because I don't like to hurt people.

He sighed,"It's because of him,right." he said. I didn't want to look up into his eyes I didn't want to see the hurt or worst I didn't to see the hate. "Yes." I whispered. I looked up to meet his face and I was surprised to see he look so calm. He rubbed the back of his head and chuckled nervously, "I guess I kind of knew you still had feelings for him. The way you've been acting kind of seemed forced like you were trying to make yourself have fun."

I felt bad, "Robert I'm really sorry for leading you on." I said. He smiled at me. Not like a fake smile are anything, but a real simile, "It's o.k." he said. "This guy must be really luckly, he has you." To hear him say that really touched me. "You know what Robert, some day you are going to meet a guy and fall in love with him and he's going to be lucky to have you."

"Thanks." he said. I pulled out my wallet and payed for my food then I walked around to his side of the table and gave him a tight hug. I turned to leave the restaurant when I heared Robert call my name. I turned around to see what he wanted, "Hunter don't forget to tell me if he hurts you so I can beat his ass." he half heartedly joked.

In my car I had to think should I drive all the way to Everett tonight to see him are should I wait till tomorrow. I came to the conclusion that it was probably better if I wait till tomorrow. The whole drive home my mind was full of thoughts of Adam. His caring grey eyes his protective arms when they are wrapped around me his handsome face all these thoughts made me feel better. God I hoped he would take me back. When I pulled up the apartment I got a text from Colton it said

"Will be staying with Liam for a few days. I'll see you when I get back."

I couldn't help but smile. I was happy for Colton and Liam I knew they loved each other. I wondered if they were soul mates like me and Adam. I guess I will have to ask him when I see him.

That night I was restless. I could not sleep. I turned over in bed and looked at the clock 3:00 a.m. I closed my eyes hoping for just a little bit of sleep , but it never came. I fond myself wandering around the apartment. I felt lost I tried to read a book that didn't help so I tried watching T.V. , but there was nothing on. Maybe I need some air, I thought-and then I caught myself and gave a self-mocking grin. Sure. Air. When I was really thinking that he just might be out there. Waiting for me. It was very unlikely that Adam would be waiting out there, considering what I'd said to him. But I couldn't shake a vague feeling of wanting to go outside. At last I went out on to our small back porch, I told myself that I would spend five minutes here and then go back inside.