Gedichte & Songtexte

first song ever

(Vorwort)
Diesen Text fing ich an mit 17 zu schreiben und zu komponieren, als ich Gitarre lernte zu spielen. Ich war aber einfallslos und Poesie lag mir nicht. Die ersten zwei Strophen hatte ich gebacken bekommen. Zur Info, ich hatte zu dem Zeitpunkt starke Depressionen, sei gewarnt.

Erst seit einem Monat fühle ich Poesie, dank ihm.  Deswegen wurds mal fertig.
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„It's not a thing"

All I'm saying is that I'm good
No one is thinking that it's not true
Im fighting inside me all day long
But sometimes I loose, I can't get along

It's not that I'm never feeling happiness
It's not that I completely hate myself
But somedays I can't feel anything
But I keep saying it's not a thing

Everything's just in my head,
it's so hard to leave my bed
Everything should've turned red
all those thoughts, they make me sad

Sometimes | crash and sometimes I,  -
feel myself almost slowly dying
But | survive every time and l, -
always am trying to keep my shine

But as stronger i get from my ups
as more destroying are my downs
And even with my many wounds,
i still keep reminding:
Its not a thing

It will be alright, it will be okay
I think that one time l'Il be happy
It hurts in a way, i just can't explain
there will be no answer, just my cold rain

Why am I lying, why am I shaking
Why do I still keep all this faking
No one will listen and no one will care
I just can't find my peace anywhere

if no one will listen, everyone is gone
Im by myself, I'm still on my own
I hope no one can hear, and no one will see
that, this, this is how I feel:

It is a thing, it's a fucking thing
I should stop pretending,
that its not a thing
got a feeling that, never again it'll spring
Always destroying everything

Why it's a thing, it's hard to bring
a hopeful thought out of my fucking brain
I don't wanna live, there's nothing to give
Just end it right here, right here and leave.