Blurry Smoke

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Music Of The Day-
Daughter - Youth
"I've lost it all I'm just a silhouette,
A lifeless face You'll Soon Forget
My eyes are damp from the words you've left
Ringing in my head
When you broke my chest"

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I don't know what to do
My grieve is such a bother
We were supposed to see a film today
Together like we both wanted to
But
I lost someone today
A pet I cared for over 6 years
I had to get out of the house for it
When I came back
I said we could see at least one
And you were dry
Saying how busy you were
When hours ago told me otherwise
When I asked why
You said you didn't want change of plans
I just lost someone
I just lost someone
I JUST LOST SOMEONE
PLEASE SOMEONE HOLD ME
I WANT TO BE HELD
I WANT TO BLEED
THROUGH THE CRACKS
I WANT TO BE HELD
I'm so sorry
I don't know what to do
I want someone to tell
That everything will be fine
But no one does
I want to disappear
I just want comfort
To feel someone loving me
I don't feel very loved right now
I feel ...
Something bad
Like I will snap at any second

I was never a smoker
I smoked once or twice
But I remember the peace it came
As the smoke invaded my lungs
As my throat burned
I crave a smoke when I'm sad
To feel the nicotine help me
That nothing other than the cigar
Exist in that space of time
I wish I could smoke
I wish I could be in peace
Oh such a bother
I wish I had my mother
Away from my brother
Just me and the nicotine

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