My cold sweetheart (Killua fanfiction)

I'm weak

Previously...
He hugged me... His warm embrace made me feel something I've never felt. Love... I loved how his warmness dominated my cold interior. He made me melt.

Have I fallen for the lone wanderer?

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I can't say it's love because it's too early. The eye can deceive.

His warm embrace slowly left me, the cold startinh to get attached to me. I would really love to get out of this frosted hell.

"But what can he do with me, I'm broken...?" I thought out loud.

"Neva if you let me, I would like to fix you... Nothing is unfixable." He said looking into my eyes.

Crap! I said that outloud!

I ran to the bathroom and I locked myself inside. Sliding down the wall, I sat on the floor blushing. There was something obstructing my thoughts.

'No one can fix a chattered glass.'

You don't understand how this feels! Why does this feel like a dream. A cruel and cold dream. Sounds just like my life... Cruel and cold.

I started digging my nails in my palms. Feeling like there's nothing that can wake me up from this wicked dream. Slowly blood started dripping from my hands.

"Neva? Open up..." He knocked on the door but I didn't open it. I just sat there as salty tears started falling from my face. I can't let him see me like this. It means I'm weak...

I got up and I was about to get a towel when the door fell to the ground.

What the hell! He just knocked down my door!

A lot more blood falling. I felt as if I just caught my life and I was about to wake up from this dream but Killua took me in his arms and hugged me.

"What do you think you are doing?! Hurting yourself isn't going to help! It will only make the ones that care about you suffer..." He was sobbing...

He placed me on the couch and started cleaning my wounds. I just sat there looking at his poor face feeling bad.

"I hurt myself because I don't know if I'm alive. It's the only way to assure me that I'm alive. You don't know how it feels to be alone without anyone to carry you when you fell. No one to light up your darkest nights. I went through all that... By myself. It's just not enough... I'm like the shadow of a shadow. Now one sees me nor cares about me." I said as more tears started falling.

"You know that's not true, right? There's at least one person in this world that looks at you while you are trying to get others to see you. One who is darker than you. Maybe you have met your soul mate but you don't accept him. Maybe he is standing in front of you trying to help you feel better and telling you that hurting yourself won't help. Find other things that help because one day I may not be here and Poof! All your life disappears before your eyes, everything seems happy but no. That is not reality, you have to live through the storm even if there isn't a rainbow when it finishes. Just for the satisfaction that you have someone that cares for you..." He said placing his hands under my chin raising it so I could see his face.

"Neva will you please come with me. I will make sure I will protect you from yourself and from the cold that has been bothering you. I will make you feel like you have a family but just please. Let me help you." He took my hand in his and looked at me waiting for an answer.

"Yes." I said as tears fell on his hand.

"Why are you still crying?" He asked wiping my tears.

"These are tears of joy... I think." I'm not even sure what I'm feeling. It feels like my heart is beating a thousand times faster. I think I just found a new thing to assure me I'm alive.

"Let's rest because tomorrow morning will be a new start." He said smiling. Huh? A new start...

A new path where the snow won't obstruct my beating heart. A path where the ice inside my heart will melt. I never believed this day would come. Hell to that! I thought this wasn't possible.

We layed on the couch. His arms were wrapped around my hips and I slowly closed my eyes taking in the warmness. All this is possible because of my Cold Sweetheart.

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Author's Note

Hey guys! Hope you liked the new update. Please vote and comment what you think so far. Next update will be 'I'm Awkward'.

Love you all, Stay Beautiful!
~Truffs