i know we will never be together, we are just too far away and we are just both so broken but i still like to think about what would happen if by some chance you showed up here or if i ended up there and i like to think we would be happy and everything would work but you are so sad and i am so angry we are broken and we will break each other even more, i am terrified that if i speak to harshly or someday hold you too tightly that you will shatter because of me, because i am a collection of sharp edges that will injure your soft demeanor and i don't want to leave another girl in a pile of wreckage because i cannot love properly. i don't want to hurt you but i cannot leave you. i will ruin you but i need you to keep me alive. i want to be with you more than anything but if i get too close i will hurt you and i couldnt live with myself knowing i ruined the one good thing in my life. i am so sorry for being this way.
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