Flowers Will Fall (Killugon)

Chapter 10: Doctor's Words

Killua's POV: 

I knew Bisky wanted to say something else. She and the others looked extremely worried. I mean I would be too. The first thing I would ask would be, "Who is it? Who is the one you love?" I bet at least one of them secretly know who my crush is. Suddenly, the nurse walks in with a clearly annoyed look. 

"All of you get out." She says coldly. "The doctor wants to see you, Killua." I think she was one of the nurses Kurapika hit. I nod, not able to make out any words. 

"See you soon, Killua." Gon says with a slight smile. I can feel the flower petals come up. I just give him a smile as I hold them back. Everyone except the nurse leaves. She sighs. 

"Can you walk?" She asks. I shrug, my body is feeling kind of stiff. She grabs a crutch that was laying against the cabinet. "Here, use this and follow me." I grab the crutch and get up. I use the crutch to balance my weight as I walk. I follow the nurse down the hallway. We stop when we get in front of the doctor's room. "Go ahead." She speaks. 

I walk in and was greeted with a wave. "Killua! Welcome in. Please sit down." The doctor gestures towards the seats. I sit down and lean the crutch next to the chair. "Alright, I'm going to get to the point." He starts. "You have the Hanahaki disease, and it looks like you don't have long..." My eyes widen. 

"H-how long...?" I ask in a very scratchy voice. He sighs and adjusts his glasses. 

"By the way your voice sounds... I'd say the stem is in the process of making its way up your throat. My estimate would be two months at the most." He speaks. I stare at the ground. I didn't realize that it was going to be that soon. "If you'd like to get rid of the flower, decide quickly." He speaks. "You can either surgically remove the flower, but you will lose your feelings and memories of the person. Or you can confess to the person and hope for their feelings to be returned." I just nod to act like I was taking notes or thinking about the options. But I wouldn't do either of them. I'd rather die than losing my feelings and memories of Gon. I also knew that he would never love me back. The doctor grabs a pen and begins to write down something. "I know you're not going to consider either of my options. But please, think about your friends and family. Think about how they would feel." He says as he puts down the pen. 

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The next day, I get released from the hospital. Right now, we're heading to the car so we can go back to the cabin. I can hear Bisky mumble something. I glance down at the bag that I'm holding. In the bag was the pain pills the doctor prescribed to me. "How are you feeling?" Asks Leorio in a slightly worried tone. 

"Fine. I used to be an assassin. This is nothing." I say as I look down, thinking about what the doctor said. I can feel the air around me getting tense. 

Kurapika sighs and speaks up, "Killua do you mind if we can talk when we get back to the cabins?" I nod but don't even bother looking in his direction. We stop in front of the car. Bisky pulls out her keys from her purse. We all get inside the car. This time, Alluka is in the middle, siting between me and Gon. Alluka probably knows who I love. She purposely sat in the middle. I think basically everyone in the car knew too. Kurapika and Leorio sat in the back like last time and Bisky is driving. 

I just stare out the window and watch as we pass other cars. Suddenly, the doctor's words pop up in my mind, "...Think about your friends and family. Thin about how they would feel." I just grumble. 

'There's no way I'm telling Gon.' I think to myself. 'But what about Alluka...' I sigh as close my eyes. I could think this over later. Right now, I needed sleep. I couldn't sleep at all in the hospital because it brought back some unwanted memories.