𝐒𝐨 𝐆𝐨𝐨𝐝 | 𝐀𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐚 𝐒𝐡𝐞𝐩𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐝

002 | Something Is Wrong

Waking up and feeling that something is wrong is most definitely the worst feeling in the whole world, being doctor makes that feeling a lot worse because you recognise the symptoms, the symptoms I am recognising are ones I've felt before, or I've witnessed before. Unexplained weight loss, nausea, extremely tired and I've had a cough that's not gone in the last month.

"Maybe it's just my mind playing tricks on me, I mean I've been sick enough since I was little; it's just a cough, maybe I'm over doing everything?" I mumbled to myself as I left my bathroom. I was still living in which was mine and Mer's house but now it's mine, Alex, Jo and Arizona live here too.

"Want a lift to work?" I asked Arizona and Alex as I made my way into the kitchen where they were talking. I was going to ask Jo too but I wasn't sure where she was.

"Sure" they both replied and I nodded.

"Is Jo in today or is she in the night shift" I asked Alex seeing as he was dating Jo and she had moved in with him.

"She's just getting ready." Alex said and I nodded.

"Alright, I'll get my keys and my bag, we will have to pop to the gas station on the way in as I was way to lazy last night" I laughed a little.

"Belle' is driving us in today, want to grab a lift with us?" Alex asked Jo who walked in as I was about to leave.

"Are you sure you don't mind?" Jo asked turning to me and I nodded.

"Look Wilson I know we aren't exactly friends but your dating my best friend, the one who helped me get clean, the one who takes me to meetings if I try and chicken out. The one who hugs me if I'm having a bad time and takes my blood for tests which I have regularly to make sure I don't have cancer again.  You don't have to like me but your living in my house, dating my best friend so you should know that I'll always try, I'll try and that means offering to drive you to work and being a shoulder to cry on if Alex is a dick which trust me" I smiled, what I said was the truth and the whole truth.

"I never said I didn't like you" Jo said and I smiled again.

"Then it's settled im driving the 3 of you in to work" I said leaving the kitchen and heading up to my room. Once I got to my room I grabbed whatever I needed and headed downstairs.

"We can go when you all are ready" I said as I headed into the living room and sat myself on the sofa to wait for my friends.

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"No wonder Annabelle isn't answering her pager, it's on the side" I heard Kelsey's voice in the lounge connected to the toilets,  I checked my wrist watch and realised I had been in the toilets for half an hour; I was surprised nobody else has came looking for me. It was the middle of the day and I wasn't heading for lunch; I didn't feel up to it

"Shit" I whispered; you could say I had been missing in action; unintentionally that is.

"Belle! Meredith's looking for you" Kelsey said through the locked door of the attending's toilet, I had just been throwing up and was now currently stood staring at myself in the mirror, I was trying to figure out if I had a lump, I first saw it this morning after I had showered.

"I'll be out in a minute" I called back while I continued to look in the mirror as I checked my boobs, I was terrified of the thought of having cancer again, the thought that If it is breast cancer that I don't be strong enough to fight it, I was terrified of leaving Meredith especially after we had already lost Lexie. Quickly I pulled my scrub top back on and let out a small sigh before I turned around washed my hands and unlocked the doors before I left the toilet.