My First Love (Lesbian)

part 6

Today I woke up pretty late. I slept at around 5am... My thoughts about Catherine keeping me awake. It was 11am when I decided to get up from bed and start my day. That was when I turned on my phone, only to see five message notifications, all of them being from the same person...

In the texts she was saying: "Victoria, what's wrong? Why did you leave? Is everything okay?"

"Vic please reply. I'm getting really worried."

"Victoria, please just let me know if you are okay. Please"

The other two notifications were from the group chat that we have with the rest of the team

She was saying: "Hello everyone."

"I wanted to inform you that we have training today too, to make up for the training we missed this week."

Oh shit-... What am I going to do? I thought I had the rest of the weekend to thing about whether I'll keep on going to the stadium or not. To be honest I don't think this is about the training we missed. It's all about her wanting to see me. If you take the messages that she sent me last night into consideration it all made sense. At that moment it was like two different people were talking inside my mind. The first was telling me that I shouldn't go to training again. How would I ever look her in the eyes? I was too embarrassed and nervous about what was going to happen. The second one though, was telling me that I shouldn't give up on my dream of becoming an athlete, for a dumb teenage crush... Yeah that was exactly what it was... A dumb teenage crush... Right?

After at least an hour later of thinking if I should go or not, I decided to go. I would just avoid her throughout the whole training and when it was time to go home I would walk. Quite easy...

I finally brought myself to answer to her texts with a simple: "I'm fine." And that was it.

It broke my heart not being able to talk to her the way I would a day before. In one minute it had all gone to waste. All the effort I put into this relationship... Everything. I had to ruin things again. I always do after all.

Just thinking about all this made me start crying all over again. But this time it was ten times harder. This time I had completely realized what had happened the night before. Facing her again was going to be hard but I had to do it if I really wanted to make my dream come true.

That was when my best friend texted me saying: "Hey Vic. Uhm we haven't talked since Friday morning. Is everything alright?"

And I realized... I hadn't told her about what had happened the night before. She could maybe give me advice. She was the only one who knew about this after all.

"No Jane. I'm not ok. Can we meet please? Something happened and I need to talk to you..."

We decided when and where we would meet and in a matter of minutes we were  together sitting on a bench. I could see it in her face. She knew I was a mess and she knew what person I was about to talk to her about.

She then started: "It's her right? Catherine?"

I couldn't answer, I just nodded.

"What happened?"

"Jane... We were at her house an I kissed her. She kissed me back but I panicked. I left her house running without saying a word and now everything is so complicated. She texted me asking why I left but I didn't know what to tell her. I don't t even know myself, why I left. How am I going to ever look at her again? Today we have training and I decided to go but it is going to be hard both for me and for her, I think. What am I going to do Jane? I can't give up on my dream!"

At that point I was sobbing and I could tell Jane was teared up too. She just sat there listening to me as I was speaking and when I was done all she did was hug me tight and tell me: "Shh don't worry. Everything is going to be okay."

We just sat there in complete silence, hugged for another 5 minutes until she came up with an idea.

"Why don't you go to the stadium today and just talk to her? I'm not asking you to act normal I just think that you should sort this out. You should tell her about your feelings and you should listen to what she has to say too. Who knows maybe she feels the same way about you. You said she kissed you back right?"

"Yes she did."

"Then I wouldn't worry that much if I were you."

Now I was actually considering this idea. I mean it seemed the right thing to do and also the easier way to finally understand what is going on between me and her...

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Hello there! So another part has come to an end. I can't wait to see what you think about it. Let me know if you have any suggestions for the next part. And as always more chapters are coming! Bye!!