The Identity Of The Sinful Miracle

a c k n o w l e d g m e n t s

OH KAY a crappy ending ~

First of all, I just want thank you for all the support! Thank you as well for staying right from the start up to the last! Though this story have traveled a very long journey, you still remain.

I don't know how did you guys finish this ugly book, all I know that I disappointed most of the people here. But yeah, I don't care that much.

And so, it is now done. I hope, you don't expect much in the final chapter. I was rushing this chapter, and didn't care about everything. I was just writing and writing.

The reason why I managed to finish this because of the anime that I watched, entitled "Run, Melos!", written by Dazai Osamu. It tells me this: "There's no need to write well. Write it. Write it to the end."

I have mentioned this not quite long that my goal wasn't to make my readers to love this story, my one real and true goal is to disappoint you all. Sorry but not sorry, I guess.

Just writing this story gave me a lot of experiences. What I mean is the writing experiences. One of the reasons why I wrote this, is because I want to know life more. And gladly but sadly, I know what and how life is. Knowing life is the most regrettable thing I have done. That really sucks big time.

Also, you readers are the . . . i don't know. Ha, so far, you guys are giving a full of nice feedbacks. And gladly, there are no offensive comments or reactions. I don't understand why you are all still supporting this stupid story of mine. Hahaha. This book also sucks like me.

I only wrote this to overcome boredom, but I never expected that this would reach hundred of thousands of reads. So, I can say that I am truly grateful. It is your work that's why I achieved some goals .

As you can see, I am not that popular as the others, but I can write, yeah? Modesty aside, reading my works, I can say that I'm on their level. Do you agree? Or not? Or whatever?

This book is half-edited and half-unedited. If you still noticed incorrect grammars, let me tell you this: just leave them behind. Okay, I'll be honest. I don't care now if this is written in an ugly way. I don't want to edit this crappy work, because I'm freaking tired of it.

I will leave this story just like this. So, yeah. I will make your eyes sick of this work.

Yes, this story is mostly written in English. Who cares? I decided to write it in English because I just wanted to. Don't argue. I will hate you.

Kung gusto mo ng Tagalog, pakialam ko? Umalis ka kasi.

Don't be fooled that this is grammatically correct. Everything was a mistake.

But there is a one thing that I can assure you all. I wrote this with passion. Yes, with all my heart. You can say that I poured everything here, especially to the ending part, where the most angsty part is (for me).

Well, fine. This gurl has nothing to say. Whatever. //pours water on your head.

Next, about the ending. The ending was total a crap. I have my reasons! Hear me out.

Since I have started reading books/novels, I have already read lots of lame-ass love stories and stuff. And I became sick of it.

Aha, that's why I decided to make this a tragedy. //hooray for my nonsense reason!

One of the most regretful things I've done to this story, is that I made it as a romance book. Sigh. Miracle can find her reason to live without the help of romance. Really, sigh.

This kind of genre is a cliché, to be honest.

There once was a girl, who was pretty, rich, and smart, but deep inside she was lonely. And then, she was healed by love.

Just eww. I want to delete this story. Now, truth be told. But I don't want you guys to disappoint you any further.

And yes, if you are asking me why do I make the ending painful, is because I want to see my characters suffer. Hahahaha. I love the anguish sound of their cries. I love the angsty feeling that you want to die. I simply love tragedy so much. I also believe that pain is what makes a person or story alive. Happy endings bore me to death. So yeah.

I know that this story is a real shit, but compare to others, this story is just a shit. The others are shittier. Yeah, I'm being a salty sass here. Don't argue with me.

So, if you are going to bash this story, well, be glad! Because I will bash together with you. (^‿^✿) I will support you hahahaha. (No sarcasm intended. ♡ i'm being serious here.)

And also, I don't have a Facebook page, and I'm not in the mood to create an account. There are some people who are asking me to make a Facebook page, but I turn them down. And I'm not really popular, blaah.

It's because, I don't have and know any characters that can portray the characters in my story. Y'know, fiction characters always remain fiction. I don't want to compare Chance neither Miracle nor the other characters to a ramdom/popular Korean artists or anime characters.

I can't imagine a random Korean guy acting Chance's characteristics. The same with Miracle, though. My imagination sucks, I know.

Thus, I have decided to make my characters fictionally unique. But . . . when I have time, I will sketch or create my own character. It might take so long, but wait. Hahahaha. I will update you all if I finished drawing them. ❤

Anyway! Contact me~~

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Ps. Natsumi's real father is Will Nakajima. Hahahahaha

iluvbein'alilBinch. i will make that a reality in the story fufufu