ACKERMAN IN MARLEY | PART1

Ignorance

Tamara

I was lying on my bed staring at the ceiling of the room, drowning in my deep thoughts. The dawn is about to break and cold breeze fills the surroundings.

whats the truth?...

What is the lie? ....

What do we believe in our life despite all of its hidin secrets?

Marley claims that suffering, injustice and marginalization, we live in as an eldian, resulted from what our ancestors did, and because we are the only race that can turn into a giant beasts who ate another humans. So, are we really demons as they call us? Or we are normal human beings, and for some reason hundreds of years ago, we possessed these abilities.

The worst thing in existence is that you do not know yourself and what you are capable of. I thought that we were somewhat ignorant, as we are not aware of our history and the secrets of the power of titans! but it turns out that we have reached the utmost levels of ignorance, as we are not aware of what is inside our bodies neither the truth!

I closed my eyes as tears started to fell spontaneously down my cheeks. It was the first time in my life I felt this bitterness, I myself did not understand what was happening to me, all I knew that suddenly I felt a tremendous strength flowing through my veins and began to perceive my surroundings well...I could see and hear differently than ever like some kind of superpower awakened inside me.

So as long as no one gives me satisfing answers, should I tell them how my powers trigered? If they don't I won't Definitely!

Suddenly I had the feeling that someone was coming. I quickly opened my eyes at the same time my room door was knocked. I think it's my brother Damir, as it's time for my usual medical checkup.

I lifted my back and sat on the bed putting my legs on the ground "come in, I am awake"

Damir opened the door and stepped inside holding his suitcase
"Good morning sunshine, how are you today?"

I didn't say any word. Instead, I exhaled deeply while I was looking down.

Damir stood in front of me. I can feel him staring at me without me seeing him. He then sat beside me putting his warm hand on my shoulder
"Tami...why are you crying, Is everything OK?"

"Are you ready to give me some explanation of what's going on?"

"What do you mean?"
I felt wave of anger ignited inside of me. I stared at Damir with fixed eyes while the tip of my eyebrow is noticeably raised.
Damir pupils widened, I can tell he was shocked by my reaction. He immediately put down his hand as he stared at my face anxiously processing the situation
"You are acting out of your way, Tami!"

"Of course I would...Something serious is occurring to my body and you want me to behave normally?"

"I am doing everything I can Tami to help you"

"I have no doubt in you, but I believe you have a theory. So, please explain it to me" I grabbed his hands strongly.
Dami's eyes became soft and deep. I could see the look of worry raging when he stared at me "Your skin is pale and your blood test results suggest that you are going through ordinary ill, but don't worry my dear, there is nothing serious. I'm working hard with Peter. Today I will take a sample from you blood for examination and I will share the result with you once it became ready I promise"

Demir's voice was sad and heavy... Although he did not give me any satisfactory answers, I felt that the truth I am saking for is hiden within his chest, forming a heavy burden. Even if it had been disclosed, that wouldn't solve any problem but rather would complicate matters.

"Tami, do you remember anything weird happened you didn't tell me before?"

"I already have told you everything I know and remember"

"Ok then, let's make a check up"

Damir pulled out flashlight from his bag and examined my eyes, then pulled out an empty syringe and a compression bandage to draw a sample of my blood. After fixing the ligament and before inserting the syringe, he told me, "Tamara, I want you to trust me, you are the most important person I have in this life... If you remember anything, don't hesitate."

"You are precious to me too big brother..."

Damir nodded his head then inserted the syringe. Once he finished he hugged me then said "I will take that sample to Peter. How about you meeting us at the Café after an hour? I believe you need a fresh air"

"Sounds good idea"

"Ok then...see you later dear"

Having breakfast outside sounds great idea to me!

After Damir have left the room, I decided to take a shower. I rushed to the bathroom and took off my clothes. I stood in front of the mirror to see myself for the first time after 3 days. What I saw a dull complexion, a slender body with a tired, exhausted face. I grabbed a strand of my hair to discover that it had lost its vitality and bright colour.

I am known to be a lively, positive girl who spreads joy and pleasure wherever I go. A girl who is able to conquer despair and frustration. Unlike the strange girl I see now.

Come on, Tamara, you will be back as you were, it's just a temporary health condition and I will be able to get through it more strongly than ever! You have to receive life with an open heart and be optimistic!

I told myself trying to raise my spirits, and it actually succeeded

I was the most energetic and determined of others. I will help myself to get through this ordeal for sure.

As soon as hot water touched my body, I started to feel relaxed and comfortable. The scent of coconut shampoo, which filled the place, revitalized my soul.

Although they are simple things, they have a great impact on my mood... I have not changed as I thought, I am still Tamara who appreciates the simplest things and hold on to hope even in the darkest circumstances . The only change was I got stronger after some kind of power was trigered inside me! It is smart act to accept it and put it to the fullest limits in serving vulnerable people, searching for the truth and protecting the ones I love!

When I finished I put a towel over my body then went to dry my hair and get dressed. I remembered that today we must meet up with Eren and others! so in special occasion like that I gotta dressed properly. I will pick my cigarette pants, white shirt, as well vest sleevless jacket!

Spirits lifted!