YOU'RE MY BEAUTIFUL

REJECTION

DRISHIKA'SPOV

12 December 2020...

Divyam I like you.

I don't know how the time flies so fast when I am with you

day by day I am getting addicted to you

So tell me will you be my boyfriend???

I clicked the send button with shaking hands with the only guy I had a crush on for the last 2years. Finally, after mustering up all the courage I had in myself I decided to give it a try today. I sucked in a small breath when I saw the blue ticks.

I kept the phone aside even though somewhere I knew that he'll say yes cuz he always showed me the signs that he also liked me as much as I did. After waiting for what felt like hours, finally, there was a notification. I picked up the phone with my heart rate as same as a bullet train...

DIVYAM: AhhhhhDrishika I don't feel that way for you but Sameer does like you.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?

DRISHIKA: Divyam I want to know your feelings, not Sameer's.

DIVYAM: I DON'T LIKE YOU DRISHIKA. SORRY.

I felt like crying every time I saw that message. Again there was a notification sound, it wasRohit's message [my brother-like figure at school and divyam's closefriend]

ROHIT: Divyam told me about your proposal. I am sorry drishu he's an idiot.

He told me that he has a crush on that new student Ananya. Don't worry. He'll soon realize his mistake and he'll surely come back to you.

DRISHIKA: It's okay Rohit, I had this feeling about

him and Ananya. I'll be fine.

DON'T WORRY.

I smiled in my pain. He's asking not to worry. After I got rejected for the FIRST time from myFIRST love. How can I not worry about it?

4 MONTHS LATER.....

It's been 4 months since that day. The day that broke so many dreams and relations. It's been 4 months since the day I last talked to the love of my life. You all will probably laugh that how can a 14-year-old talk about love and all but Heart Wants What It Wants.....

I guess I'm fine now after busying myself with my studies to avoid the thought I don't want to think about. HIS THOUGHTS. But that doesn't mean I have moved on. I still get nervous whenever he passes me in the hallway. I still get distracted whenever he comes to my classroom. I still get interested whenever he's the topic of discussion.

Right now I am sitting in my room scrolling through my phone not knowing what to do.

I just don't feel like anything. Ughhh I am so lifeless. I was not like this.

Things changed me.

HE changed me.

And I hate him for having such an impact on me.

My thoughts got distracted when my phone went off. It was my best friend's call. Hi Shrishti! I said trying to sound energetic and match her energy knowing her very well. Heyyy candy crush!!! she shouted from the other side.

I took the phone away from me for some seconds. CANDY CRUSH.

Yeah, that's me. She gave me that nickname thinking I am super sweet but I don't think so because my language is a little rough in comparison to other girls and I curse ALOT.

She asked me " Are you ready for tomorrow??". Gosh! She's so happy about the new session. Of course why not after all this session will be completely offline after spending a whole session in online classes due to Covid 19pandemic. everyone is excited about it except me. I now have to face something coming in my way or rather I say, SOMEONE.

"Yeah. Definitely" I said trying to match her enthusiasm but failing miserably. "Drishika" Shrishti breathed, turning all serious all of a sudden. The playfulness was long gone from her voice. "hmmm?" "I know this will be difficult for you but you can get through this. You are my strong little warrior. Yes or no?" she asked "yes, I am" "absolutely correct" "you don't worry shrish I am fine now. I don't even like him anymore. It was just an attraction." I lied straight out of my mouth.

HELL! I stalked him just half an hour ago. She took a long breath and stayed silent for a few seconds." Drishika you know na I'll always be there for you through your good and bad times?" "yeah I know and thank you for that," I said even though both of us know that I am not going to share my problems with her or anyone else.

That shit is mine to handle.

No one else's business.

"Okay, I will see you tomorrow I have some work right now," I said knowing how much she will worry about me even though it was useless. I AM USELESS. She sighed deeply"okay bye".

I kept my phone aside and fell on my bed "Ahhhhhhh I hate you DIVYAM AHUJA for making me feel like shit." I screamed in my pillow. I sighed deeply "Fuck off DRISHIKA. Are you seriously crying over a boy? Is this your level? And that boy doesn't even look that good. Come onnnnnn.....

"Yeah, that's why you stare at his pictures for hours. Right?" my internal voice called it out.

" can you SHUT THE FUCK UP ?"I groaned at myself.

I knew what to do right now so I just switched off the light and fell into a deep slumber where I could dream about whatever the fuck I want and no one could stop me from doing what-so-ever I want.

HEYYYY EVERYONE, I AM NEW TO WATTPAD I AM WRITING FOR THE FIRST TIME AND I DON'T KNOW IT WILL BE GOING SO PLEASE ADJUST A LITTLE AND ENJOY THE STORY.

OUR JOURNEY STARTS FROM HERE.

TILL THEN BYE BYE...