Sick of you || Takemichi angst

Decision

His hair almost covered his eyes.

It should be easy,

it was not like the boy had never killed someone so why was he hesitating?

He should be able to end his life if he could do it to someone else.

The room was dead silent and only Takemichi could hear his thoughts that made him question his decision.

Whenever he had a chance to save his friends,he was willing to get beaten inches to death.He had been on the verge of dying more than once so what's the worry about actually dying.

He just needed to end it quick.

But he hesitated tears falling from his eyes as he continued to sob.

He was being a crybaby.

After all it was his fault if anyone died,he should just end it while he can.

He took the knife in his hands slightly shaking.His eyes were beginning to become puffy from his constant crying but he couldn't care less.

The knife slowly,as if taunting him went to his neck not slashing it as fast as he could contradicting what he had said earlier.

He did it slowly as though he was waiting for someone to tell them to not do it and when the knife touched his neck well.

He didn't die.

Instead he felt the knife disappear from his hands as he couldn't see straight from the tears blinding his vision.

Where had it gone?

He was so close to saving everyone so why,why was the weapon not in his hands.

He was shivering but still took his hands to his face  wiping the tears that seemed to continuously flow as they dropped on the floor finally ending.

He was sick of failing everybody.

He was sick of living in a world where he had to worry about everyone's lives.

He was sick of everything.

He needed to save Mikey.

Mikey,

he almost mumbled sighing looking up after the tears had not clogged his vision.

He missed the other and wanted to live happily with him but that was impossible,he couldn't hang out with him with the guilt of feeling that he needed to save him.

That he was being selfish for being happy.

Mikey.

He saw a body in front of him and when he took a closer look he was sure it was him.

But he couldn't be sure if his memories were mixing with real life once more.

It had to be a hallucination.

He could not really be in front of him,

could he?

The raven eyes were staring at him and had a serious stare within them daring not to cry in front of the boy who was on his knees.

Why was he here?

Had he followed him?

Was he dead?

Before he could think anymore he had seen the knife in the others hand and almost passed out from the sudden chill he had.

It was the short male who had taken the knife away from his grasp saving his life.

But why? 

Did he ruin everything?

Please god no.

Right next to the boy was Draken alongside Hina who looked almost terrified.

He almost started crying once more seeing the others pained expression.

How selfish.

He should have thought of how Hina would feel if he had suddenly died.

He should have thought about a better idea.

He quickly avoided their stares and looked back at his hands.

"Help me."

The short male almost whispered staring at Takemichi's blond hair.The boy's eyes almost widened at the memory he felt thinking back at earlier.Just a week ago he was with the adult Mikey.

He wanted to just run away but couldn't as the other started speaking once more

"You see I remember now.

You were my friend and helped me.

I remember you now.

You saved me,you saved everyone and I treated you poorly"

He said dropping the knife and went down on his knees hugging the other.

He was tired.

Tired of being the helpless one.

The raven eyed  male almost cried in his arms knowing that he had almost left the other die.

That he let his trauma influence the other,he had just realised he needed Takemichi to live if he wanted to be happy but all he did was push him away almost ending his own life.

That was when everything turned blurry and the blue eyed male was no longer in his home but in a completely white room as he looked up almost asking where he was.

Then a white and tall figure came in front of him.

It was hard to make out how his body looked as he blended in with the walls but he did not mind instead listening to the words it said.

"You did it.

You saved everyone.

You can now live your life and free yourself from this curse.

You can rest now.

Live happily with everyone because you finally found the way to save everyone.

To save everyone you need to be happy,to be by their side forever .

And because you made the other realise his mistake on letting you go,

you saved him.

He realised to be grateful to have you as a friend"

The white and tall figure said as the others eyes widened.

A single tear drop falling from his eyes.

He almost smiled and broke into a forever laugh.

He was free,he saved everybody.

Saved everybody.

Before he could actually stand up and celebrate on his own,his eyes flashed all the memories he had with everyone.

Every single one of them as he looked through his life,he was glad the constant saving was over.

And then.

He was back.

Not with his past self but back on the rooftop as Mikey held him,his white hair spread on the others shirt.

"Thank you"

The white haired male said as he looked back.

He could now live happily.

It was as if all the others worries were drowned in a deep ocean.

He had everyone and he finally realised that because of the blue eyed male that sat in front of him.

He was tired and sick at first from the whole experience but he now glad that it was over.

He was glad he had not actually gone with his decision.

He could rest.

Right?