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From: Yang Jungwon
I hate them, but I also don't.
I love them, but sometimes I wish I didn't.
I care for them, but I'm tired of trying.
All is too painful, yet all too beautiful.
My memories with them, I wish I wouldn't forget the happiness it brings.
My fights with them, I wish I'd just forget the pain it makes me go through.
They toy with my feelings,
I feel played.
I feel gaslighted,
Yet... Also loved.
But what if gaslighting is loving?
What if the manipulation and torment they do is their way of expressing love?
Their actions,
they made me ponder over illogical excuses,
of their illogical doings.
...Maybe mom is just stressed.
Maybe dad just has too much pressure and burden on his shoulders.
Maybe my sister really was deprived of love and needed some care she was taken for granted of.
But why am I so understanding?
When I could not even understand myself?
My own family,
They're tearing me apart.
And my thoughts,
it's eating my system out.
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