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Four

Rays of sun shone through my curtains, making me groan in annoyance. The warmth disturbing me instead of making me feel good. I wasn't that kind of person if you asked me. I don't like the beautiful sunny days bullshit that everyone seems to like in this place. I tried to pull the covers on my face only to realize that i had no covers on me, or anywhere else on my bed

Wait?!

I opened my eyes to see that i was sleeping on the floor instead of my bed, still wearing the clothes from the day before. I tried to pull my head up but i somehow couldn't. I felt like someone purposely hit me with a hammer. My head felt heavy and it hurt like a bitch. I put my hand on the bed next to me and tried to steady myself so i can stand up. I looked around my room and the realization hit me. There were cans of beer all over the room along with an empty vodka bottle next to my bed. I took a deep breath and sat on the edge of my bed, trying to remember whatever the hell i did the day before and hoped it wouldn't be stupid

But the traces of the stupid thing i did were here in front of me, lying around my room like a evidence of a crime

I cursed under my breath and tried even harder to see whether i could remember anything, a single flash or even a picture of what i did but there was nothing. I couldn't believe that i let myself go deep down after deciding not to do it again. I can't believe that i actually drunk until i passed out and now i have to go to school with my terrible hangover and pounding head. I checked what time it was and to my surprise it was earlier than i usually wake up. I laid down on my bed, my head on my comfortable pillow and my back on the mattress. I had a light backache because of sleeping on the floor but it didn't hurt as much as my head did.

Guilt started to run over me like water do each morning i shower. This morning was one of the worst since i started my bad habit of drinking. It's not that i don't usually wake up with a hangover, it just that today was so bad. Too bad for me to handle. I replied Mat's words over and over again in my head. Words that broke my heart and made me do all of this. His words hurt me more than his cheating did.

She's just an alcoholic trash after all

Alcoholic trash

Was i really an alcoholic trash? I took a look on my room and tried my best not to believe his words. But deep down i knew i believed them. I believed them because i was an alcoholic person. I believed them because they were true and i couldn't just deny them anymore. I didn't want to believe them because they just screw me but i did and its unfortunate.

Minutes later i heard my phone buzz somewhere in the room. I stood up and looked for it only to find it under my bed. Whoever was calling hang up because it took me too long to pick up. I checked it and found ten missed calls from Mylo, seven from Lola and endless texts from both of them. I hurried and replied to both of them, assuring them that i was fine and still alive.

ME : I'm fine Mylo. See you at school

ME : I'm not dead yet Lola. No need to worry

I put down my phone and just sighed. How the hell am i going to face my mother today. I just prayed to god that she doesn't know. I prayed that she'd just let this one slip away. I just hoped that she'd give me another chance. My phone started to ring again. I tore my gaze off the ceiling and placed it on my phone. Mylo or Lola? Which one of them am i going to explain myself for? Create excuses or just tell the truth?

I held the phone and checked who it was and to my surprise, it wasn't Mylo nor Lola. It was... Audine ? I just stared at the screen for a while, not knowing how the heck I could pronounce that name. Not knowing who the hell Audine was. Not understanding a lot of things.

That's what you get when you drink yourself to sleep..

I picked up because i was more curious than confused. I didn't know whether this Audine kid was a boy or a girl because I've never heard of that name in my whole life. The boy - yes, it turned out to be a boy- on the other line spoke first. His voice was soft and attractive, if voices could be attractive. I didn't know if it was the alcohol effect or it was just me who found his voice relaxing