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Seventeen

No one expect Audine had heard about the unexpected meeting with my father. Not that it's considered as a meeting because Phil didn't even recognize me, but the thing is, no one had known because once i told him i started feeling much better. That black and big gulp i had inside of me disappeared like it wasn't even there in the first place.

My two friends didn't push me when i was upset and they didn't question why i suddenly started feeling much better than the previous week. I silently felt like they were saying we don't know what the Fuck was wrong with her but glad she's out of that bitchy drunken episode of hers. Or maybe they were busy making out everywhere and anywhere

Thank me later for this Mylo

Long story short, they started officially dating few days ago. After the date and the few tips i gave him - if you can count them as tips- he just asked her straightforwardly and without hesitation. They both told me the stories separately and to be honest, it felt like reading the same story from different perspectives.

Was i shocked? Maybe a little bit. If anyone would've told me they would start dating, i would've laughed because Lola and her ridiculous standards and fantasies about how her first boyfriend should be always made me think that she'll stay single forever. Plus, who even starts dating after the first date?

Well i guess I'm not the only desperate person in this story

I was having dinner with my small family on Wednesday's evening. Mom was almost finished with her plate while i was just playing around with my food. Eighteen years had passed and I still have this awful habit of playing with the food while eating. Something Phil used to hate

Well surprise.. I still have this habit Phil

The past two weeks were pretty tiring. There was so many projects and homework to do, assignments to hand and too many pop quizzes than we were supposed to have. I had a huge problem with it because that meant i had to skip some of the video chats with Audine because i had to focus a little bit more on not failing instead of talking to the love of my life - who by the way didn't know i was in love with him.

Pretty funny huh? It almost felt like i was in love with a picture on my laptop and a voice coming out from my phone.

But every time i had that thought, i reminded myself that I've met the boy. I had one of the best days with him and I've kissed him and not just one time

Five freaking times

He was real and beyond the technology and the internet this boy existed. And i had to keep my mind away from thinking that I'd be with him someday. I had to think of everything besides the thought of me and him together because every time my mind slips and starts creating scenarios of me and him when we're a little bit older and more responsible and TOGETHER as a couple, my belly tightens and i feel something not so good in my heart.

Like all of this is so impermanent

Mom coughed lightly, bringing me back to the real life. A life of a girl who fell in love with someone from the internet and the possibility of the thing she had for him becoming a real thing is lower than one percent

Because i didn't know how Audine felt

" Well I've been thinking lately about the mystery man i am currently seeing and i think it's the time for you and your sister to meet him in person" mom said and i straightened my back because this is the thing I've been talking about non stop since the day i found out. I made sure to mention the mystery man whenever we were at the diner table because i was more than ready to meet him.

Mom was glowing, so that meant he was making her happy and i was finally relieved that she was in fact letting someone do that

" yes finally.." i said and Clapped my hands in excitement. This maybe a little odd but i didn't mind because I'm also done with waiting for Phil to come again because he won't and the coincidence that happened in the train station that day made it clear and it made me realize that the whole time i spent waiting for him to come back or thought of him was just a waste of time