Incertitude

06

06

Mom picked me up from the chicken place, it's a good thing she arrived early so I don't have to answer any questions regarding prom. Plus, it was kind of awkward for me since Milo was sitting next to me. Gabi's question really did a great number on me.

By the time we arrived at the house, Milo sent me a message. I didn't open it for more than an hour, I wasn't ready for what he had to say. Maybe it's not a big deal for him, it is for me. It was rude not to say anything, maybe I should apologize.

Milo: hey

Milo: about Gabi's suggestion, you don't have to

Nina Gray: welll

Nina Gray: not a big fan of prom

Nina Gray: but if if u really need a friend, I can show up w my pj

Milo: lmao

Milo: should i prepare u a promposal then?

My eyes widened upon seeing his reply. Paulit ulit kong binasa ang message. I scoffed. I wish he's kidding. I really hope so.

Nina Gray: dude tell me you're joking

Nina Gray: im this rn 🗿

Milo: im not tho

Nina Gray: milo

Nina Gray: are u asking me to be your partner in prom?

Milo: yes

Milo: im not kidding

Kumatok ako sa kwarto ni mama, she told me to come in and asked what I need. I scratched my nape and said 'uhhhh'. Paulit ulit akong nauutal.

"Ano yon?" Naiirita nyang tanong.

"Well," I said. "Someone asked me out to uhh school prom." Sabi ko. She put her phone down and gave me a curious look.

"When?" Tanong nya.

Umiling ako. "I'm not here to ask if I can go." Sagot ko. Alam ko naman papayagan nya ako. "I'm here to ask what do I say?"

Tumawa sya. "Anak, I'm gonna ask you one question." She said, "Do you want to go?" Tanong nya saakin. Nakataas ang kilay nya.

I sat on her bed, next to her. "I want to, but I'm scared." I subtly answered.

I'm not well opened kay mama. I don't like telling her the stuff that are in my mind, I prefer to say I'm ok, than tell her the truth. There are times that I will rely on her but I don't tell her my issues in a detailed manner. I guess because I didn't really grow up with either of my parents, I grew up with my uncle and he's not the best guardian in the world. I kept everything to myself and dealt with them in my own way. Which is why I'm having a hard time opening up to my own mother. She understands.

She would prefer for me to be open though.

"It's normal to be scared. It's your first time attending a prom." She said, "It won't hurt to go out there and experience a high school prom. In fact, you will enjoy it." She added.

Tumango nalang ako.

"I want my daughter to experience the things I didn't." Bigla nyang saad.

Hinila nya ako pahiga at inayos ang bangs ko. "So, who's the guy?" Nakangiti nyang tanong.

"Just a friend. He needed a friend so he asked me."

Pinisil nya ang ilong ko ng tatlong beses. Hinampas ko ang kamay nya. Imbis na magalit sya, tinawanan nya ako.