Fading (Hetalia fanfic~ concerning Prussia)

Chapter Three: A Dance To A Bitter Sweet GoodBye

Next day~

Prussia POV: It took awhile for me to notice my alarm clock was blaring. I wasn't asleep...I didn't sleep at all. How could I? When I know my brother is in his room crying his eyes out all because of me. Why did he have to find out so quickly? Why...Why couldn't life for once just, go the right way...As long as I don't tell other people maybe they will take it lighter. People like Spain, France, and...Hungary. I swallowed hard, closing my eyes. I don't want to think about this right now... At that, I slid my feet on the cold floor, as I walked out. It was 6:00 am in the morning, But I don't expect West to be awake. The living room was dark and quiet. I dared to glance at the shut white door that was west's room. Slowly, I placed a hand on the knob, peeking into it just a bit. My eyes widen when I notice my brother snuggled up with a certain Italian. But he had his arms around him, and he was holding onto him for dear life. His face was also tear stained and seemed worn. I was right. I knew it...I have made him cry...Look at how sad he looks...I did that...But at least, he won't be alone. He will have someone here to look after him. At that I glanced at Italy before I slowly closed the door. A sudden voice made me jump from behind me "Prussia...Your up?" I noticed Japan standing there. "Oh-...Hallo..." He stared at the ground "Mr. Germany didn't take it to werr." I scratched the back of my head "...I see that..." He shook his head lightly "I arso wanted to show you something. It may have some importance to you." I bob my head once "Ja. Vhat is it?" He held a newspaper towards me. It shown an article, I noticed my picture on it. In big bold letters the title stated "PRUSSIA HAS FALLEN" This made me cringe. But then I placed a fake smile "Ah...Vell I guess I should just read vhat it has to say zhen hm?" Japan had a saddened expression "Prussia-san..." I quickly took the newspaper from his hands and scrolled over the words closely. Tons of information about how countries took pieces of me and wiped me out just like that...Including Germany..."Hm...At least it's pretty accurate...I vas expecting some insults zhrown in zhere or something..." Japan was silent and just lowered his head "Sharr I wake up Mr.Germany-san?" I softly shook my head "No need for zhat...I vas just about to leave for awhile anyways...I vant to go zake a stroll around...If he does vake up and ask, zell him I just vent for a valk..." At that I threw on my jacket and headed out, not taking a second glance at the Japanese man. I looked up at the cloudy grey skies and started to walk, no where in particular. But somewhere away from all that needless emotion...I mean, it's just me...Why make such a big deal over it? So what if I disappear?! So what if I fade?! People should suck it up...Those memories of me will only hold them down...Memories of the lost leave you broken...And make you do stupid things... I took a second glance up at the sky, and beamed the dark barring clouds a smirk. Raindrops mixed with newborn tears as I whispered "Isn't zhat right...Old man fritz?" My feet guiding me, as my eyes slowly closed. Where ever my mind takes me...Where ever I will end up...I will let my heart decide...I will let my heart take me to wherever it longs to be. Wherever that may be, I am giving it trust as I close down my senses. I will only walk where it feels right. Where my heart believes...and wants... For what felt like hours of shivering and wetness, I kept walking. My eyes closed and hasn't once opened. For I know my heart won't betray me. It hasn't before. I hear buzzing streets of people as I pass. People must think I am crazy- ah- perhaps I am...Actually, I'll admit it. I am fucking insane. At that I smirked. Insane and awesome that is. I heard the quietness of a countryside. How long have I been walking? When will I stop? Who knows... I hear the constant chirping of the woods...Or it could be my little gilbird who I can feel has planted himself on top of my head. Poor thing probably has flown to much and gotten tired. I reached my hand up and patted him "It's alright Gilbird, I don't know how long ve vill continue, but I feel like vhenever ve get zhere it vill be one hell of a zime. I can feel it...vherever zhat is." The response was a small "piyo piyo." as I started walk. Continuing my small, what feels like endless, journey. My legs start to feel worn and sore...Iv'e been walking for so long..."Ugh...Heart jou better hurry up and get me zhere before I pass out." I started to shake from being so cold, No it has not stopped raining one bit. But this did not stop me, no way in hell would a little rain stop someone like me! I could feel my stomach growl, hungry in which I haven't eaten in days. I didn't eat any pasta last night so It did not count at all...I wonder how my brother is right about now? Surely he is up...It has been hours since I have left. Hopefully not still weeping for me. I really don't deserve that...I am not worth to mourn over. I may be awesome but I am an asshole. In which I will admit to completely. I had no idea he cared for me so much. Dear West I hope this doesn't hurt you so much... In the midst of being in my thoughts, I suddenly felt the over bearing feeling to stop. My shuffling feet did so, standing in place. Where the hell did my body want to be so bad!? Guess I should open my eyes now. As I slowly slid them open...I froze. My heart coming to a stop and my eyes widening. "No..." I whispered as lightning struck above me. Not making me flinch in the slightest. "NO..." I stated louder and attempted to back up. But by then I knew I wouldn't be able to run away. I was already pulled in here. Captivated by my body's ability to find such a place like this...Eyes closed...Just letting me lead me to where I need to be. But this was the one place...I did not want to be out of all places. By now, the sky was dark. The rain was much harder, circling around me. I clutched my chest and screamed. "No no no no no!!! Why this place!?!? WHY!!!" I fell to my knees and sobbed. Kneeling before the rather large house...Austria and Hungary's house to be in fact. But then...The door slowly creaked open. "Prussia...?" I heard in a low tone. A voice I am all to familiar with...My breath hitched. I was frozen...Why...Was this happening...Everyone...Everyone is just going to find out weren't they?..."H-Hungary..." I whispered back. Clenching my fist tightly, I stood to my feet and noticed the door cracked open. Her standing before it and looking at me with a worried expression. "Pr-prussia...Vhat's wrong?? Are jou alright?!" My head lowered, my all to soaked bangs plastered to my face. "I'm fine...I-" I was cut off when she stepped out into the rain and pulled me into an embrace. "Jou better not lie to me. Jou know I can see right zhrough jou..." She mumbled annoyingly. Aggregated by the fact I would even attempt to lie to her. My eyes widened at this guesture. My expression twisted back into a sorrowful one. "I can't zell jou..." At that I wrapped my arms around her and held her as close as my weakened exhausted body would let me. She gasped a bit before holding me just as tight. "Prussia...Please...It's bothering jou...Enough to make jou walk all zhe vay here?...Jou can zell me." I shook my head lightly "Nien. I von't zell jou. Zrust me, it's for jour own protection." She then growled "Dammit. I don't need protection! I can zake it! Don't hide zhings from me! I vill find out one vay or another!" The rain that I had grown long numb to, started lighten. The sound of piano music coming from the house echoed faintly to my ears. I pulled away and looked into her eyes "Hungary..." She had a sad worried face. The Hungarian looked back up at me and waited for me to continue. I whisper with a small sad smile "May I have zhis dance?" Her eyes widened, she opened her mouth as if she was going to say something. But her face just heated up and she nodded. I then slid my hands to her sides and she snapped her head up "Vatch it!" I just lightly chuckled "Zrust me. I'm not zrying anything." She furrowed her eyebrows and muttered "Ja. If jou did zhat vould be suicide!..." The small comment just made me chuckle. I pulled her closely against me. My hands rested on her hips as we swayed in unison to the soft gentle music. She hesitantly leaned her head against my shoulder. Which only causes me to smirk more. My love for this woman is undeniable. The simple pure light to my world is right before me. But, of course, she belongs to someone else. A much more elegant talented person. Who at times can be utterly annoying (at least in my opinion) and whiney, but who am I to judge? He gains at least some sort of respect from me, he has won the heart of Elizabeta. And that is a very very hard thing to do. The music soothes me. Our bodies together and moving along with the tune made me calmer and glad. Glad to be able to share such a moment as this with Hungary herself. It is sort of like a dream in a way to me. After awhile, the music comes to a stop. I attempted to pull away but she just held me closer. Her eyes a sweet enchanting green as they bloom open and she is staring back into my own. Hungary whispers "Please don't leave. Not yet." I shook my head "I c-can't stay. I'm sorry...I-if I do z-zhen..." She was stricken with worry and sadness once more "Zhen vhat?...." My eyes glint up at the doorway, in which was wide open, and an Austrian with crossed arms stood. He had a worn, tired face. He must have been working on that beautiful music piece all night. Slowly, I pull away from her grasp and level my eyes with Austria's. "So. I suppose by zhe vay jou look, jour doing horrible." He scoffed "As if a barbarian such as jou vould have anything to do vith my business!" I smiled faintly "Jou never change." He was quite confused but then sighed "As of jou. Prussia. Still as immature as always." I lifted an eyebrow "Oh? An insult after a compliment. Oh boy isn't zhis one feisty!~" He slowly shook his head "Jou simple minded dog..." I added "Jou prissy little shit..." Hungary decided to step in at that point "Jou zwo zhat's enough! Zhat is zhe last zime I can stand jou zwo to argue vhen really jour both just jealous of eachother!" My eyes widened. Austria and I stated in unison "Jealous?!?!" I laugh "Hah!! Pfft as if I am jealous of zhat cheap fool!" Austria growled "Excuse me?! Cheap fool- I am no such zhing! Only a meat headed jerk like jou vould call me zhat!" Liz glared at me "Prussia. Stop." I obeyed the command, looking down at my feet with slight anger. Austria said with annoyance in his breath "I zhink jou should leave..." I turn and mumble "As jou vish. But don't doubt zhat zhis may be zhe last zime jou vill ever see me again..." At that I started to walk away. Not a care in the world anymore. If I fade...Would it even matter? Sure I do not want my brother to be in pain...But no one else would even care. Would I...Be forgotten so easily? Not casted another thought...My thinking made me shiver as I continued to just walk faster...Walking an walking. But I wasn't sure where to this time...