Alfaaz

29.amaya

Badi kashmakash hain khuda reham kardein,
Ya toh khwab na dikha ya unhe mukamal kardein.....

Dilemma.

I couldn't gather myself after what nabhan did. It was so confusing for me to think straight now. Nabhan really did a good job with my mind.

He threw me in such a struggle and awavering mind. It was such a play for him to do this.

He really need not to do this all in front of everyone. What does he think of himself. He might be any sort of mawali and gunda I won't fear him. I will not lower my head now.

I was a stupid teen girl that time but now I am a woman who know what is wrong and what is right for me.

Still there is this tickle in my heart for him. I know this can pull me in a hell again but I would never repeat my mistake.

Don't know why but for a weird reason my heart was on my palm when he called me love in front of our elders.

But than a part in me says that again this  is some of his plan or a way to take me back with him.

Why is he staying here in first place? Don't he have the other places to stay. Ayesha bhabhi would know the answer.

I sat on my bed grabbing the phone and dialled Nadia's number for we exchange our numbers on dawat.

She picked but before I could speak umer bhai's heavy sleepy voice hit the walls of my ears.

I covering my mouth thought of ways to save myself. Clearing my throat I spoke up in low and calm voice.

"Aslamualaikum can I speak to Nadia." He sighed and I heard few shuffling sounds than I heard her voice which was tired and surprised.

"Amaya kaisi ho?" Seh asked I felt bad for disturbing thier sleep.

"I am good..... Erm are you free nadia?" She chuckle before I guess she walked out if the room.

"Yes I am free..... You say everything okay na?"

"Nadia, ayesha free ho toh unhe bhi add karlo." I ignored her question and said.

"Kyu kya hua Amaya nabhan ne kuch kiya kya?" Her voice held tension and anger.

"Usne kya nahi kiya hain Nadia..... Thag gayi hoon mein....." I felt my voice broken by end.

"Ek minute mein ayesha ko bulati ho." Than the call was on hold for about five minutes when I heard a surprised and concerned soft calming voice of ayesha.

"Ayesha yaar...."I whined and heard bangle voices

"Hua kya hain yeh bolo." Nadia asked being the impatient.

"Nabhan ne sar mein dard kardiya unhe wapas bulao na yaha rehkar bas kha rahein sabhko." I complained to hear some shuffled laugh.

"Amaya aisa kyu bol rahi ho?" Nadia asked again.

"Woh keh rahe the ki unhe mujhse dobara nikkah karna hain aur abhi barish mein nach gana bhi kiya hain. Sabh log ke samne..... Phir har baad par meri help karte hain.....mujhe nahi-"I stopped when door was open and walked in the mess himself in my room with two bowls.