I want to be happy I want to be free I want the world to know I'm fine. But I can't never express the real me. Are times I wanted to be okay and wasn't the time I needed space. Never got it. The time I wanted to be happy and free with a person I can't even kiss. The person I cry for at night. The person I can't stop thinking about. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm drowning and my own thoughts are even my homie . I laugh to hid the pain. I cry where no one can hear me because I'm Fine I'm more than great. I leave for tomorrow because it's not promised. I keep my head up. I'm trying my best. If you want to be happy, do not dwell in the past, do not worry about the future, focus on living fully in the present. Time doesn't heal emotional pain, you need to learn how to let go. If you want to fly on the sky, you need to leave the earth. If you want to move forward, you need to let go the past that drags you down. And we who loved the world must learn the language of absence: days foreshortened, empty rooms, the irrevocable distance between the goodbye and the letting go. When your trust has been betrayed, the only thing to do is live, learn and let go. Otherwise the betrayal done by another will turn into hate for them. But they will not feel this hate, it will only hurt you more, growing bigger and darker. So, live, learn and let go. By living, it means they did not hurt you so deep that you can not move forward. Learn, learn to not trust this person again, and to make more of a sound judgement in the future. Letting go doesn't mean forgetting. It means that you have let go of the pain it caused. And by not forgetting, you will learn and move forward from the betrayal of the past. But you have to let go of it sometime, Gaby. You can't change the past, any of it, and hanging on just eats your life away. Even a spineless anthropod sheds what's no longer useful and leaves it behind them. Are you not greater than they? Consider that the path you were once on was meant to end when it did. Obsessing about plans lost or changed is a barrier to holistic wealth because it keeps you stuck in the past and unable to move forward. The only things we never forget are the ones we never possessed. Letting go of the past gives us a restart. You're not going to live in victory if you hold on to baggage from yesterday. Your hardest times often lead to the greatest moments of your life. The way to let go of the past is the same way to take care of would - don't pick at it. Everything inside me has shifted. I'm stronger. Not only am I able to let go, I'm happy to let go. I'm focused on the future. But all of that is an hour from now. Now, on the other side of midnight, we do not know yet what is coming. So be it. So let it be. The ego loves holding onto grudges - Spirit doesn't bother. Be you and keep your head up.
