Daybreak Controversy [R18]

6 : The Dinner

Sam

I am not going to put my every trust that what ever we have will blossom into something regal. I don't want to expect things.

I have always been the emotional type. Iyakin. Mahina pagdating sa pag-ibig. But those experiences made me realize that I should not settle for something less. I should not beg for love and affection. Kung ayaw edi ayaw. Kung manloloko edi huwag ng habulin pa. I learned to love with reservations just because I don't want to get hurt. At hindi na bago sa akin ang mga katagang binigkas niya. The great Nathaniel Luke Montenegro is a man worshipped by women. Kung manloko man then I don't give a single shit.

Days had passed. We stumbled on bed fucking like rabbits.

I visited my Ob gyne for an IUD. Para kase sa akin it's what I see to be suitable for me. I needed to use one since he doesn't use condoms during sex and it will never be a good thing to get pregnant with him.

" Blooming ka" It was Doc Ivana who had spoken what I don't think is true.

" Namamalikmata ka lang" I said.

" No you are, Doc Flores. I second" papalapit na sa amin si Doctora Janine Ibarra na ang sa alam ko ay galing ng neuroward.

" Goodness it has been three months already Dra. Flores. So what's the score between you too. I can't believe you are both stuck in that position called acquaintances. Ang tagal naman ng getting-to-know-you stage niyo. Tatlong buwan talaga" Doc Janine said.

" Well not all women are destined to be in a relationship. I'd rather stay unglued to someone than to suffer shitty emotions" I justified. Pareho silang umiling.

" Let me remind you lang naman, your Luke Montenegro is friends with our own version of prince charming. So basically, birds with the same feather, flock together." Wika ni Doc Ivana na ngayon ay kumakain na naman ng mangga.

" Well I don't see him as a Prince charming. Baka prince charming ng iba. But not me." I just simply said. I have prayed for one. God knows how much I prayed for a good partner. I just don't know if he will come. Baka nga maging matandang dalaga nalang din ako.

" Well love is a choice. Kung takot kang sumugal muli, hindi ka namin mapipilit. But you will never be trully happy if you don't give yourself a chance to be happy" Janine said. Napailing na lamang ako.

Ang tipo ni Luke ay iyung tipong hindi nagseseryoso. And I totally get it.

Magsasawa din siya sa akin. He might have no time yet for other flings that's why and I'm the most accessible pussy for him as of the moment.

" At kumusta naman kayo ni Doc Wade?" Tanong ni Ivana.

" We're doing fine. Alam niya" I answered. Nakita ko kung paano lumaki ang mga mata ni Ivana.

" Totoo? Hindi manlang nagalit?" She inquired.

" Kaibigan ang turing namin sa isa't isa. No more than that. Dahil kung higit pa roon, matagal na sanang naging kami" I answered once more. Tumango si Janine.

" Kung sabagay. Tama nga naman. And from the very start, si Janine naman talaga ang gusto ni Wade." Ivana answered.

" And speaking of Dr. Montenegro sinusundo ka na niya oh" Sabay nguso ni Ivana sa paparating na si Luke.

Lumapit ito sa gawi namin. Behind him are Dr. Luigi and Dr. Ibarra. Mukhang tapos na ang trabaho ng tatlong 'to at nalaman siguro nila na magkakasama na naman kami at dito ulit kami sa cafeteria nakatambay.

" Well, it seems like each of us needs to tend to someone." Wika ni Janine.

Lumapit na ang mga ito sa kanilang mga asawa at isa isang nagpaalam na. Naiwan tuloy kami ni Luke.