Fitting His Views (texacali)

piece 14

    It's been quite few days now since gov had put a stop to letting texas go to meetings, and thankfully cali has been keeping good company. Tex couldn't help but wonder how this really started, but now they would barely separate. They were constantly at each other's side, calling nicknames, messing around, and on the occurrence of last night, Texas even passed out in cali's room, waking up in calis bed with at least 4 plankets stacked on him.
    Currently the two were in the kitchen, texas sitting on the counter while cali was baking some snickerdoodle cookies. Texas hadn't been able to refrain from telling cali to add extra vanilla, and when the western state questioned why to add it at all, Tex's southern heart died a little, but overall they were having fun.
    Cali was rambling on about how snickerdoodle's were also called snipdoodles and talking about how they came from Germany or something, but texas mind was lingering off. There wasn't any meeting today, but he couldn't help but think about the meetings. Him and cali had been closer lately but with everything happening.. was it about to die because of what might happen in meetings?
    He doesn't want to loose what's happened.. it's just so much better to be able to go to cali and just talk like normal people and well; he supposed they're states but even then, they were able to sit in the same room for hours, now when they argued it was fallowed by laughter and they came out to cali.  And now.. what if the meetings break it.
    Texas thought for a moment about what could happen if cali outed them, but they weren't actually worried about that. How could they not be.. he doesn't care if they're outed, he just doesn't want to loose their friendship.. or is it friendship? It could be pitty, is it? No, why would cali pitty him... Florida? Florida got them to be together on the 4th but before that in June..
    The pride flags, the bowling alley, the bet, everything that they did, meetings were still happening then and they were close any-
    "Are you ok, texas?" Cali was starring at him and texas instantly shifted to give a smile.
    "I'm fine, just thinking really. You were talkin' 'bout how no one really recorded how the name was gotten?" Texas said this, only to get a stone faced from cali.
    "Don't redirect Firefly. What's on your mind?" Cali hopped up to sit on the island while setting a timer on his phone.
    'You.' Texas thought as he looked forward at California, thinking of what to say. 'Austin, wanna come talk to cali?'
   'Sure, I haven't spoke to him since you were loopy from fires'
    'You did what now?' Texas sighed, shaking his head, "Austin's been a bit bugged about wanting to come out, you wanna hang out with him for a bit?"
   'Way to blame me.'
     "Sure, I'm always happy to talk with him." Cali gave a smile and texas nodded, letting Austin come out as he just relaxed in his head space.
    As Austin went out,  texas was silent,  just thinking alone in his headspace. He could not stop thinking about what would happen if the meetings went back and them and cali distanced from each other again. How bad it might be. He didn't even know why it would be so bad.. or well, that was a lie, he was down bad.
    He couldn't even hide it as this rate because Fuck he had a crush on California of all people. God damn it no... he couldn't like California theres all the shit on being states, the fact that he's gone soft in front of the public eye is enough to make his state livid but seriously, if he got seen on video near California so much he'd probably be murdered.
   What about California tho.. he would be effected too, and whose to say cali could handle that? And on that topic, whose to say cali would even like him back.
   Settled, Texas just can't like California, so he doesn't, he has to stop being so close, he has to distance himself so that California can't know, no one can know.
   
    California watched Austin's eyes start to water as cali was putting in a second batch of cookies, "are you ok Austin?"
    Austin swallowed down, he could hear what was happening faintly. He didn't have a full understanding of what texas was thinking because of just how jumbled it all was, but he kinda got the idea. He smiled at cali and sighed, "just a lot going on with our state right now, that all Cals'"
    California nodded a bit, truthfully he was worried about Austin.. and Texas.  "Wanna talk some about it?"
    Austin looked at the hand in which he held their hat in.. no response, Tex wasn't paying attention, "I think it has more of a relation worry regarding being states if that makes sense.. like what publics think versus what Texas wants to do; really he's worried about," Austin felt a pinge, texas now paying attention, "Public view."
    As California watched Austin finish his sentence, he noted that Austin was trying to make a point of some kind but cali wasn't really sure on it, "that all I'm going to get?"
   "Most deffinitely." Cali shook his head at that, Austin smiling at him. Austin hummed, cracking his shoulders back before giving a look to cali, "I'm gonna shove him out, have fun interrogating him."
   Cali rose a brow as texas hat was put on and cali watched texas, Austin really must of thrown him off because as texas slowly looked at cali, cali saw his eyes again. While confused, they just looked so dazed..
   "Did he... tell you?" Texas asked this, and he was embarrassed to hear in tone Crack in a nervous pitch.
    Cali stared at texas, a thought on his mind. "Yeah, he did.." Texas face showed such fear cali would've said it was a lie had he not seen it.
    Texas heart raced, in his head he yelled at Austin, "... thoughts?" He had to know Cali's reaction. Some emotion of some kind, he looked so calm but a stone face reaction doesn't help, is he mad or something?
    As cali was about to speak, Gov ran out, "COASTAL AND WEST STATES, MEETING.. California I'm sorry I really need you here; oregon, Washington, Nevada and Idaho are required too."
    California looked at texas and smiled, "take out the cookies for me in ten-" with that cali left, leaving texas in.. shock.
    A few minutes texas stood there. Just kind of.. silently. He stared forward at the clock on the wall across the way. He felt a hand hit his shoulder and he didn't even glance, "little buddy, you looking more stumped than usual."
   "Take out the cookies?" He asked a bit louder than he would've liked, looking at Alaska who.. to say the least looked like he wanted to laugh at the southern state, "what's that supposed to mean?"
     "Probably means to take the cookies out of the oven." Alaska said calmly, looking at texas as he, clearly irritatedly, walked over and checked them, only to sit back on the counter, "once they're done."
    Texas looked at Alaska with just.. Alaska guessed he looked lost. She gave a soft hum, looking at texas calmly, "after you take them out we can go in my room so you aren't seen spilling your guts in the kitchen, ok?"  He just got a nod from texas, and it made them sigh softly. "Is it about someone?"
    "Yeah.. and me I guess.."