❀𝙴𝚡𝚝𝚛𝚊 𝙻𝚒𝚏𝚎❀(Discontinued)

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏

I died.. I felt the cut through my neck.. I even felt the welcoming hugs they gave me before getting pulled back onto earth..

Am I supposed to live..? But..  Didn't my father.. Kill me? He killed me himself.. Why am I still here...?

That was what the lady thought.. Although.. Before she tried killing herself.. She tried hanging herself and everything.. All for the warm hugs.. And peace..

She didn't wanna live in a world where people used her.. She knew she was used from the start.. Their love felt fake.. Cold.. And of course unwelcoming..

The shine in her eyes.. The warm smile she gave them.. All for the sake.. Just for them to be happy.. She wants them to be happy..

Love is something she craved for.. She wanted a family who loves her.. She felt the family in heaven.. Where light was..

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... She read a book about a God who gave life.. To people who didn't deserve to die..  'Hugs.. Love.. I was supposed to die... They..  Were the one who put me back here.. ' The brunette thought

She tried her best and.. Wanted to go back.. The maids.. She wasn't nice.. She was going crazy.. All for the love.. And warm feelings..

She.. Wanted that.. That love.. (I feel like this is a better prologue instead of.. Chapter lol) She ran back to her room and stayed there.. Trying to find a way to meet them...

.. Why was she back there.. Was she supposed to suffer..? Was that a curse given to her..?  Because she.. made the princess Athanasia.. Feel unloved..?

She walked back and forth thinking.. Those words..  Questioning herself.. More and more.. After an answer questions were formed.. She felt like she was going crazy..

She decided to stop and sleep.. It was getting late..  While she was.. Planning a way to meet them.. She was planning to starve herself in the process as.. Death could still be a way.. Everytime she died.. She felt the welcoming.. Hugs..

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She woke up the next day feeling a little.. hungry.. she wanted to eat but.. at the same time not.. She.. tried to leave the place and go for food.. but.. she started feeling week like.. she was a little tired.. 

She still tried to leave her room and grab a snack.. she leaned on stuff for support.. she knew it won't be as bad as the next few days of starving.. she knew all the symptoms.. she read all the medical books she had in her past life

But.. one thing she didn't know was.. the pain.. of starvation.. she hasn't felt it yet how long do you think she will last? lets find out!

Day 2

I woke up the next day.. feeling tired.. sure they like me but they don't even.. come check on me.. maybe its because I put the note on the door.. yea that's most likely it Jennette tried to get down from her bed.. but she couldn't.. 

She gave up on day 4.. she didn't wanna go through the days after day 4.. Jennette who was looking a little thin.. had to be checked by a doctor.. to see if it was any worse.. 

She was okay.. she just had to rest for a few more days.. and everything would be fine.. Of course almost everyone was worried.. Maybe even her father..

I was just standing in the room.. Looking out of my room.. Why?.. She searched for answers.. Why do they care for me.. It feels a little warm.. They give me.. No.. That makes me happy..

Is this what real love feels like? Warm...? Not.. It's not fake right..? Right..?.. I just felt a little bit of love.. I want that feeling.. It feels better.. I'll live for that feeling.. If I stop feeling that.. I don't know anymore..

..Maybe.. I'll stay in this world.. after all..?

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Short Chapter =D

Hope you like it!  ヾ(•ω•')o