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{APRIL 2022}

SUM CHAMKKO LOVE DIVE WOO OOO OOO OOO LALALALA LA LALA

bro i don't remember shit what happened this month except ive's comeback, but
BUT
i met someone ( why does it sound like that ew lmao' 💀)

basically-

in italy when your teacher is absent u and your classmates get separated in different classes (my favorite teacher was absent that day)

so i started literally PRAYING they'd sent me to my cousins class since we go to the same school

AND THEY DID!!!

when me and my other 3 (old) classmates arrived at the assigned class (old cuz i'm going to highschool this year byebye shitty ahh middle school✋) i literally could not look at anyone in the eyes except my cousin.

anyway we all sat at the front of the class, near the teachers desk cuz there weren't any seats left (that rhymes)at the first seat next were i was there was this girl with a good looking haircut (similar to a wolfcut) and i liked her outfit LMAOit didn't look like she was paying attention in class but more like she was drawing somethingSO SINCE SHE SEEMED LIKE A COOL PERSON (even if i was kinda afraid of her) I STARTED DRAWING TOO😀
while drawing i tried to talk to my cousin (her seat was like at the exact center of the class) BUT SHE SEEMED UNCOMFORTABLEnot only then but everytime i tried talking to her in breaks were she was hanging out with her friends she seemed so uncomfortable and it made want to cry myself as asleep at night (LMAO)like was i making her uncomfortable? was she embarrassed to talk to me infront of others? does she think i'm weird or annoying and doesn't want her friends to make fun of her for talking to me?(yes i really thought that i'm pissed that i did)

ANYWAY

SO SINCE IT WAS THE SECOND PERIOD WE HAD A 10 MIN BREAK AFTER THE LESSON and my cousin came up to me so did her friendsthe girl was also her friendanyways we started talking and this girl, her name was irene, pick up my sketch book and saw my ayaka drawing and she was like

i:"did you draw this?"

me: "oh yeah haha"

THEN SHE STARTED PASSING MY NOTEBOOK TO FUCKING EVERYONE NEXT TO HER LIKE 8 PEOPLE-

and then the girl saw the drawing and was like

(dialogue time)

?:"this looks like ayaka"("sembra ayaka" in italian)

me: "oh yeah- wait"

"you play genshin impact?"

?: " yes! what rank are you?"

me: "45 but since like months"

?: "ohh"

me: "who's your main??"
?: "xiao what abt you?"

(i started having like a mental crisis bc i have like 3 mains; venti, kokomi, ayaka)

me: "kokomi! "

?: "ohh nice:)"

and then my cousin was likeL: "great i have no idea what u guys are talking about 😀"

we all laughed and the girl grabbed her friend and was like " oh i made her start playing genshin the other day"

me: "i tried making ludo (my cousin) play but she insisted no :')"

anyway i don't remember anything after this but she looked at all of my drawings but didn't compliment them 💔

anyway the bell rang.my life was donei was ready to jump off a bridgemy class sucked i wanted to change classwhy didn't ludo tell me her classmate liked genshini hate everyone except the girlwho is sheshe's nice I WANNA BE FRIENDS WITH HERbut hownowhat if she thinks i'm annoyingi'm gonna ask my cousin for helpno wait what if i annoy her and she feels forced to do it cuz i'm annoying

whatever

i'm gonna ask her anyways idc 😻

(walking back to my class, never been this sad in my life)

me:"conoscete quella ragazza in 3F con i capelli marroni corti, più o meno alta come me che sta al primo banco vicino alla finestra?" translation > "do u guys know that one girl in 3F with brown short hair as tall as me and at the first seat near the window?"

chiara: "u mean costanza?"

me: "who the fuck is costanza"

maria: "doesn't costanza have long hair"

gio: "wait u mean vittoria ?"

me: "WHO- how do u know her"

— time skip —

(after school, walking home)

me: "hey, i really like your CLASS, i didn't expect to find someone with the same interests as me"

ludo: "oh yeah she's always talking abt the game and she watches anime too"

me: "ohh cool"

"can you help me become friends with her?😄"

"i know that has a deeper meaning"

"NO i don't like her i just really want to be friends with her😐"

(end of dialogue)

anyway this month was even more stressful than march cuz i had to start preparing for my exams at the end of the year

but it was alr😍

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APRIL2022 EXPERIENCE: 6/10