"Are you really that fucking dumb Claire?" Alec's voice echoed through the empty corridor as he pulled me closer
"What the fuck"
"I love you Thea Claire Hart" this is not even the last thing I excepted to hear
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Thea Claire Hart has always be...
In the end I would rather Be able to say I loved too much Than not enough - unknown
1 month later
Thea's POV
I still don't know how to feel or react about everything that has been going on. I feel everybody hates me and that i have nobody.
When i fall asleep i don't wake up for hours but sometimes i am wide awake like an owl. When i eat i eat for two ,but when i don't i just don't feel like eating at all.
Mom has called quite a lot of times to check up on me and i have moved into the new apartment.
When everybody got to know i was moving they weren't thrilled but they had to agree either ways.
Alec and Amy can't get anymore mushy mushy and its annoying. It feels like they are rubbing it in my face. On the other hand Alec ignores me like plague, from time to time i see him looking at me but he instantly diverts his gaze
I constantly try to remind myself how low he thinks of me, he is no different like everyone else he too thinks i am a pathetic unwanted bitch.
Today we were all going to Sasha's party. I didn't want to go at first but then again the only thing i would do in my apartment was to sulk
I wore a fitted dress, i wanted to feel sexy today and not someone who is pitied. I curled my hair and put on some make up.
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"Hey where are you?"- Sam "Home" "Come down. We're here" "Okay"
I went down to see Sam and Andy waiting for me.
"Where are the others?" I asked, internally hoping to see Alec
"They just left" sam said
"Why did you guys stay, i could have come on my own?"
"Nahh we didn't want to leave you alone" andy answered
"Save the pity" he just opened and closed his mouth
We booked a cab and reached there within half an hour. So many people made me feel anxious, i felt judged as i saw everyone eying me
Soon enough everyone scattered into the crowd dancing, drinking, talking as again i was left alone.
I quitely sat at the counter at the far end. I have never been like this in my entire life. I was never open about my feelings, i always thought i wasn't good enough but recently with everything that has been happening i feel miserable.
I can't help thinking what difference it would make if i wasn't here? Would anyone notice? Would anyone care? I guess not
From a distance i could see my friends dancing, Stella and Jeremy held each others hand as they danced, Andy and Sam were doing some weird dance moves and Alec.....well he was gigling at amy shouting the song lyrics.
