To My Ex-Best Friend
Thank you for bringing friendship a definition. I'll never forget the days we stayed up til 3 am, laughing and crying about the dumbest things. Even if we're not friends anymore, there are times when I wanted to tell you everything like I used to. I've always been so scared at the thought of what life is like without you, but here I am living without you, growing further apart.
There were so many times when I have reached out to you during my darkest times, but it did disappoint me when you did nothing when I'm crying my heart out. It's okay, I understand that you didn't know what to do or you didn't really care. I knew our friendship fell apart the moment you'd never reached out to me. Never share your secrets, your dumb jokes, your current favourite song. So much has changed within a year. It felt like our friendship had an expiry date.
My heart broke when I found out the three of you hung out without even inviting me. I'll never forget the day I broke down, crying all my anger and sadness away until I felt a void in me. It was definitely a phase that felt painful, unbearably long. Of course, it hurts, but not everybody will stay in your life forever. That's just how life works. I've tried so many ways to despise you, but I can't. I thought hating you would make all the pain go away. I couldn't even bring the thought of me hating you.
I'm extremely happy to see you doing well, and see someone taking care of you. I hope your new friends won't be too weirded out seeing the jokes and memes you send, call and company you for hours, and many more. I guess some people aren't meant to be yours forever. I hope you'll realise how much I appreciate and love you. I know I never said those words out loud. I'll forever cherish the memories we've made and I would never trade them for anything.
You're a phase I will never ever forget and I want to start a new chapter without you. So thank you for everything you have done for me, I hope you won't forget what I've done for you. I'll always miss you <3
