Living with My Idol! (A Jesse McCartney FanFiction) - [Re-Editing]

Chapter 37

Stupidity will be the death of me. How can I be so stupid?

 

Recap:

Jace had gotten her measurements taken for her new uniform and found Caleb waiting for her.

Jesse had unfortunately agreed to go out for coffee with his old flame that was (possibly) still burning.

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How can I be so stupid?!

He was blaming himself for his wimpy-ness. Why couldn't he have said no? It was so easy. NO! It was just one word. He couldn't even say that one word!

Arghhh. He was groaning and he crawled on his couch. He was fidgeting so much that he fell on the floor. It didn't hurt much, the floor was carpeted. Everything in his basement was either carpeted or padded; it acted as some kind of sound insulation. He punched the floor too, but realized that he would have to start getting ready.

He sighed and got up. He sat on the floor for a while, with his back against the couch and his head on the seat.

Why can't I ever get over her?

Even if Jace wasn't around, he would still think of Katie. Sometimes he would think of the happy memories, and sometimes the bad ones would haunt him and gorge him. He cursed himself for not being able to let go.

He closed his eyes to calm himself. He must have been trying to calm himself a little longer than he had anticipated because Katie called to ask him where he was. He told her that he was on his way.

Reluctantly, he pulled himself together and left the house. He drove up to her apartment and honked twice. He had no energy to lift his phone to call her. And there she was, the beautiful devil that seduced him and twisted him around her pretty little finger and then ate him and spat him out after she was done with him. He felt his heart ache. It had been more than a year, more than two years, but it still hurt to see her looking so up there.

She waited for a while and she must have realized that Jesse wasn't getting out of the car to open her door for her, so she did it herself. She sat at the back seat, like a princess being chauffeured.

"Where's the gentlemen I used to know?" She joked from the backseat when Jesse pulled out of the driveway.

He's not here anymore, he thought, but he didn't say. "Where do you want to go for coffee?" he said instead.

"Oh, there's this great little place down Boardwalk, they serve the best coffee! You know it?"

Yeah, it's the shop that sells ridiculously expensive coffee. "Yeah I think I know it."

"Great!" Katie clapped her hands together and sighed excitedly, "So how have you been? It's been so long!"

All of his insides cringed, how have I been? Well, let's see, you made me watch you break my heart into pieces. I'm doing great! "I'm alright. I'm fine."

"That's great! I'm doing great too, I've been auditioning and everything. I got cast for Georgetown earlier this year, but ABC didn't like the series."

Jesse saw her nodding from his rear view mirror. He didn't want to talk to her, he felt like a child. He didn't like feeling so childish, so he replied, "Georgetown, huh? What was it about?"

"Well, I think it's something to do with politics. I play this girl, Nikki, see? She's like this beautiful and smart person working in the White House."