I wish I knew || k.s × fem reader

Chapter 3 - solace

Heeseung pov

"Haewon please open the door, I cant help you if you don't let me. You've been locked in your room crying since yesterday... I'm worried about you. You know how much I care for you don't you, I promise I'll listen to you for as long as you want just please let me take care of you...please?"

I hear her door unlock, her footsteps probably walking to her bed and a loud thud.

I run in her room to see Haewon passed out on the floor burning hot from a fever.

I rush to pick her up, put her on her bed and run a bath for her. I put her in and get a small towel drenched in cold water to put on her forehead and wait for her to wake up.

Haewon pov

I slowly open my eyes, dizziness and nausea taking over me as soon as I do. Everything is blurry and I see two of everything.

"Someone's finally awake, how are you feeling won?" I recognize that voice as my brother, heeseung. His soft and sweet tone bringing me comfort at a time I feel lost and betrayed.

"Do you want an honest answer or do you want time to mentally prepare yourself?" I chuckle as I try to lighten the mood... and my spirits.

"Obviously I want the truth Haewon, I need to know what's wrong to help you sis, I just want to be a good big brother to you."

I take a long sigh, trying to control my emotions so I can tell him what's wrong without completely breaking down.

"Hyun cheated on me, I just found out this morning that Sunhee is moving to Seattle, Soojin is moving to Australia for university and Narae is friends with the girl Hyun cheated on me with." I rush my words trying to not get caught up and start crying before I finish my sentence.

"Wonnie... I-"

I give him a sad smile in attempts to comfort him, as my tears begin to roll down my face uncontrollably and I begin sobbing.

I could feel my headache worsening, and my head throbbing from the pain. My eyes felt dry although they were wet from the continuous tears flowing out of them, my voice hoarse and my face red and hot.

The one person I had actually trusted with my happiness had taken advantage of me in every way possible. He had crushed my dreams, what I thought were our dreams to grow up and get married... completely tainting my definition of love. There was only one person other than Heeseung that could possibly comfort me at this moment, but I knew he couldn't and wouldn't come save me.

Sunoo pov

"ugh... bro who tf keeps calling me at 4 in the fucking morNINGGG I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP" I scream into my pillow as I, ironically, pick up my phone.

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANTT"

"Sunoo it's urgent, it's Haewon."

"I'm coming." I say as I hang up.

Funny, right?

It's "I need my beauty sleep" until it's Haewon. And for good reason. Every day of my life from the moment I met Haewon and the moment she told me she got a boyfriend, I loved her. I still do, but while she was still single and while she still liked me, I was unsure of my feelings and didn't want to risk ruining my friendship with her, so I kept quiet.

It's really a shame that I only realised how much I loved Haewon after I lost her.

It's really true, you don't learn to value something until it's gone.

And yes, I'm well aware that Haewon is very much alive, but a part of me has been missing ever since she got a boyfriend. Hyun, also known as my replacement, made it very clear that he wanted me far from her otherwise he would hurt her, so I did as I was told. It's because I loved her that I distanced myself from her, I didn't want to hurt her. But she didn't understand that, she thought I was distancing myself from her because I was bored of her and so she stopped reaching out. I'm grateful for Heeseung as he's been keeping me up to date with her ever since we stopped talking and for the first time I've been called in to help my best friend, my first love and my only love..
Haewon.
If only I knew what she was really going through before I blindly rushed to the opportunity of seeing her again for the first time in 6 months...