"Tsk," I clicked my tongue, struggling to free myself from the metal cart. I had slipped on whatever nonsense I couldn't manage to notice and unfortunately fell onto the cart that was right infront of me. I quickly got myself back up, dusting off the dirt from my coat and quickly continued running to the staircase, acknowledging the fact that there was no elavator there.
Sweat dripped from my forehead, adding on the nervous expression to my distraught face. Tears brimmed the sides of my eyes but I quickly blinked them away, knowing that it wasn't the time to cry. I sprinted as quickly as I could, getting over the small trips and slips I made.
I slammed open the door, only to see view the gruesome sight of takemichi and Mikey laying on the ground, a pool of blood surrounding them. Sanzu was at the corner, freaking out and screaming for Mikey. I ran over to them, ignoring the police's orders. My eyes were redder than ever, and the tears were already threatening to spill out.
"N-ne.. jiro..-chan?" I stammered. It was like the dam broke as tears flowed down my cheeks like pure rivulets and dripped to the ground, staining it temporarily. My heart drained immediately when his eye slightly twitched. By then, Sanzu had already secretly shot every police officer there.
"A-ah! Jiro-chan! Y-you're alright.. let's get you to the hospital, yeah..?" I exclaimed, trying to get him on my back.
"I.." he rasped out, making me stop immediately in my tracks.
"I.. can't feel anything.. am I, finally.. free?" He mumbled wearily, feeling a pounding ache in his head.
"I-I'm sorry.. I lied to you.." he forced a close-eyed smile, making my lips part slightly from shock. I snapped out of my trance and continued moving towards a building that had a hospital in it.
"It's alright.. as long as you're okay, I'm fine with it." I firmly concluded. He chuckled lowly, coughing out some blood onto my shirt accidentally, not that I minded it.
"You don't have to try so hard, [Nickname].. I've already chosen this fate.." he whispered out, loud enough for me to hear.
"N-no.. I'll get you there.." I stuttered, panicking when Mikey continued coughing uncontrollably. I slightly stumbled a few times but kept going, determined to heal him.
"Goddamnit, you really are so stubborn, huh?.." he sadly grinned, before pushing himself off me forcefully. He winced from the impact when his body touched the cold ground again, but relaxed soon after.
"What are you doing, jiro-chan?!.. can't you see that I'm trying to save you.." I cried, trying to pick himself up again, only for him to dodge by shifting to the side.
"Just listen to my last words, will you? I can already.. feel myself getting colder by the second.." he said quietly, making me sigh in distress before moving him to a more comfortable position. I had to wake up to reality, he was dying.. and there was nothing I could do to avoid this from happening.
"I.. would like to disband bonten.." he started, making my eyes widen from the sudden statement, but allowed him to continue anyways. "I have.. always wanted to tell you this for.. a long time."
"But [Name].. I love you, not Sakura.." he confessed with a straight face. I laughed sadly at his confession, before more tears decided to come out.
"Why did you have to confess to me after your dying.." I sadly murmured.
"But.. I'm really, really.. sorry on how I treated you.. I just broke up with you to keep you safe, from my dark impulses.. but the truth is, I haven't gotten over you and just used Sakura as a replacement.. there was no traitor.. I just used that as an excuse.. to make you stay closer to me" he revealed with low chuckles, looking up at me for my reaction. I, however, just kept a blank face, with tears continuously dripping out from my tear dunks.
"So.. once again, I'm sorry.. and, I love you.." he choked out before coughing out a dangerous amount of blood, making me anxious.
"Ah.. it seems like it's now my time.." he gave a solid smile before his eyes fluttered close, body turning cold.
"I love you too.. dummy.." I admitted quietly, before bursting out into sobs. Tears were everywhere, and the only emotions on my face was sadness. Distraught. And guilt.
Why didn't I move quicker? Why didn't I stop him from jumping down? Why didn't I help him with any of his problems? Why was I so..
Useless?
Tears were leaking down to the ground and my eyes were already bloodshot red. Many people were coming out of their houses and gasping when they saw a body and a crying female, but I ignored them. In fact, I ignored everything around me.
"God.. Why are you so cruel? Why are you taking everything from me? Is it karma? Is it judgement? Why?" I screamed out, my head hung up high to the sky, revealing my tear-filled face. My gaze shifted to Mikey's peaceful smiling face, making me tear up even more and broke down again.
Sanzu, shocked to see me crying so hardly, rushed to my side to hug me. I was stunned by the sudden embrace, but nevertheless hugged back. I tightly gripped onto him, as if I was afraid to let him go. It was like, if my hand lost my grip on him, he would disappear immediately.
"I-I.. could have saved him..!" I managed to let out through my pained sobs. He shushed me gently as we waited for his limo to pick us up. When it finally did, I walked in and as soon I touched the seat, I was immediately knocked out.
Sanzu sighed worriedly, before moving me to the side so that he could have space to sit. This was indeed a long, and tear-filled day for me. And he couldn't complain either, considering the fact that he let out a few sniffles and tears from the loss of his boss. Although he had half-hated him for being mean to me for the first few months of me staying there, he knew he exactly what he was going through. It wasn't that he had ill intentions, he had good ones, but just brought about it the wrong way.
