Dear Diary

Dear Diary, I'm sorry...

This chapter may upset readers. This chapter dose include talk about suicide and a attempted suicide. Even though this is fictional, suicide is a real thing and it should not be taken as a joke in real life nor on the internet.

If you feel like you need someone to talk to or feel suicidal please call a Suicide Hotline. I believe the number is 988. Please remember to eat, get good rest, drink water, take care of yourselves, and talk to someone if you feel sad or hurt. But also check up on your friends aswell! You never know when they need you or someone to talk too.
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If you feel anyway about the things I have said please skip this chapter.

I just can't.
I had a nightmare last night, I don't really get scared at nightmares but this one just made me think things through. It was Uraraka and me in the training ground, she was talking to Mina. I started to see some black inky arm reach for Uraraka from the forest. I couldn't move or tell her anything and she got dragged into the forest quickly. Suddenly I started to run to the forest with Mina and some other classmates, I was in front so I saw Uraraka first. I grabbed her and tried to explode the inky arm that was grabbing my best friend, I didn't, I actually exploded her arm. I heard Mina cry and yell at me how I'm always so reckless and I killed her. The inky arm then grabbed Kirishima and the same thing happens, I killed him too.

I know it's just a dream but it could easily happen in real life because my quirk is Explosion, it's dangerous. With everything that has happened I just wanna sleep and never fucking wake up. This whole situation is a living nightmare that I want to wake up from so badly, but I just can't. I don't want to make Kirishima, Denki, Mina, or Uraraka to be sad I don't want to leave them yet but I can't fucking take this. But I mean, they would be able to get over it, I don't think I'm too important to them so it's fine.

I though about it for a hour or 2 then I started to go take a shower and get into something that I liked. I put on something plain, grey sweat pants and my favorite shirt that had the logo of my favorite band my black boots too. I also put on a necklace and some silver rings. I even did my hair even though it wouldn't even matter when I was gone, but at least I would look cool.

I'm going upstairs to the roof now. I feel like that would be the best way to do it since that's what I wished would happen to Izuku, I feel like I deserve it because when I said that everything got fucked up. I'm going to leave my book out and opened to this page so that someone could read it when it's done. I just wanna say that Izuku I did what you asked and I'm sorry for everything I've done to you in the past, I hope this is enough to repay for what I've done to you and everyone else. For being too weak to not get kidnapped and being the cause of All Might's injuries and maybe even death. For hurting Best Jeanist when he and many other hero's tried to save me. And finally I'm sorry that my friends may be sad for me doing this but it feels like I just fuck things up so this is for your own good. I just don't feel like I could be a real hero if all I do is hurt everyone around me, either by being violent with my quirk or being too weak to help anyone. If I can't fucking help myself then how could I help my friends or my family. If I can't do that then how could I ever be a hero, let alone the #1 hero. It feels like all my dreams are just burning up and crumbling down in front of me. This is my last goodbye. Goodnight.

-Katsuki Bakugou. ♡

No one's POV

Bakugou turned off his phone after saying goodnight to his parents for the first, and last, time in forever.

He turned around to take one last look at his room. Bakugou had posters of his favorite bands and some pictures of his old friend and some new ones too. He didn't look at it for a long time thinking that if he saw them he's would feel even more worse about his friend getting killed by the sludge villain and about Izuku.