Dear Diary

Dear Diary, Why?

I woke up in a hospital bed with my teacher Aizawa at my bedside. I didn't remember much from the night before, I just remembered looking at my room, writing my letter in my Diary, and looking up at the sky. Aizawa saw that I was awake and tapped me lightly.

"Hey kid are you ok?"

I didn't answer, all I did was sat up and realized that it didn't work. I wasn't dead. Aizawa tried to talk to me a little more but I just kinda sat there for a minute until I found out what to say.

"Why?"

"What do you mean 'Why?'"

"Why am I not fucking dead, the fall was high enough I think."

"Bakugou I'll explain what happened but first tell me in detail what happens before you going on the roof."

After I explained what happened and what I was really doing Aizawa took a deep breath. Then he put his hand on my shoulder.

"Bakugou I know things in school and in Japan has been very stressful, but a lot of those thing were going to happened whether you said what you said or not. You couldn't do anything about what happened with All Might or the other heroes that were there to help you in any way they could and fight the League of Villains. That fight was going to happen and we heroes all knew it was going to be a violent fight that may lead to fatalities. But we still fought, we chose to put our lives on the line."

"Sure but you don't know shit about Izuku."

"I know I don't but if you die then he might just stay a villain. If you really care so much then don't you want to live so that you could turn him good?"

"I-" I didn't know what to really say. I wanted to keep my rude tone on but I just felt like I couldn't control myself anymore. Like everything I pushed down was boiling up to the surface and I couldn't stop it. I hugged Aizawa and just started crying on his shoulder. He didn't say anything and just hugged me back.

I wanted so badly to just stop the tears and act all ok but I couldn't stop them. They just kept on flowing down my face and I couldn't do anything. Fuck stop crying you crybaby! You may not be good for anything anymore but your not a fucking crybaby! I kept yelling at myself trying to put on a tough face and just go back to sleep. Hopefully if I sleep I'll go back to my normal self. The old Bakugou. The Bakugou that wasn't a crybaby that never need help from any extra. The strong one that never needed to hug a extra to feel better. But look at me now, I'm not what I used to be. I'm weak and pathetic.

"I think there are some people that want to see you, they where the ones who help you when you were unconscious."

"Who the hell-"

As I said that Uraraka, Momo, Todoroki, Ida, Kirishima, and Denki all came in one by one. First one was Uraraka who jumped on my bed and bear hugged me.

"I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD!" She cried.

"BAKUBRO ARE YOU OK WHAT HAPPENED?"
Shitty hair cried aswell.

"We we're all worried what happened?!" Denki said.

"Are you well Bakugou?" Said the fancy rich kids all at once. (Todoroki, Ida, and Momo.)

"I'm fine you extras!" I yelled trying to hide my face so they didn't see that I had been a crybaby.

"Bakubro even though you're hurt you always are yourself aren't you?"

I'm not like myself at all but I couldn't let them see that.

"Of corse I'm myself why would my stupid injury change anything shitty hair?!"
I said trying to ask what he knew, like maybe he read that note...

"Well... Uraraka told us something's about what she saw you doing on the roof..."

"Uraraka?!" I yelled in shocked while looking at my best friend that was crying on my shoulder while hugging me.

"B-but you are still hurt I couldn't even h-help my best friend." Uraraka said while trying not to cry.

"I hope that you didn't think that we where bad friends Bakugou. We could try to be better friends so you don't feel the way you felt when you..." Kirishima trailed off not wanting to say what happened.

My heart drop. My best friends are not bad but I made them feel that way, I shouldn't care that much but I feel so bad that I thought they didn't care too much for me. They care so much. Fuck. Why the hell did I do this shit? I broke down but I tried to hide it by laying down and putting my blanket on. Uraraka let go of me but stayed sitting on my bed.

"Y-your not bad friends your perfect extras..." I mumbled. I guess the room was silent enough for most of them to hear it.

"T-thank you Bakubro! I never knew you could be so nice." Kirishima kinda mumbled.

"Then why?"
Uraraka mumbled.

" What do you mean why round face?"

"Why did you jump?"

I stayed silent but she still asked, getting louder each time as if I couldn't hear her even though Uraraka probably knew I was ignoring the question. Kirishima tried to stop Uraraka from getting too emotionally aggressive.

"Well now that your kinda ok do you want to have a sleepover?" He said nervously.

"I guess shitty hair." I said trying to hide that I really wanted to go.

"Great! Who else wants to go?"

"I'll go we could do cute face mask and wear cool pajamas!" Uraraka said in a better mood.

"I'll go too, we could play Super Smash Bros on my nitendo!" Denki said and Kirishima tried not to laugh, that damn dirty minded couple really share one brain cell.

"Me and my boyfriend could bring you all to the mall to buy goodies for the sleepover." Momo suggested.

"I'll buy 2 or 3 more Nintendos switches with my dad's credit card so that we could all play and Bakugou we could get a custom case for you to keep one of them! Although the case will probably come late." Todoroki said so calmly.

"WHAT?! 2 NINTENDOS ARE ALMOST MY RENT! ARE YOU THAT RICH?!" Uraraka yelled almost fainting.

"I'll get you one Nintendo too."

"Really Todoroki your so nice!"

"It's really not that much my dad won't notice either."

"I'll pict in too by getting pajamas with Uraraka for you all!" Ida said.

"Bakugou I think you'll be able to get out in a week or less because Recovery Girl worked a lot to help you so you'll be fine to go." Said Aizawa.

"Then We'll have the sleepover at Mina's dorm since I think she'll definitely be made if she didn't host. I'll invite Sero too!" Kirishima yelled in excitement.

I stayed under my sheets trying to compose myself from my mix feelings. I felt guilty because they felt like I did it because they were bad friends, but I felt to excited that we were having a sleepover. Damn if I ever leave my book out and they find it next week I'll be so embarrassed for being such a softie.

Speaking of my Diary, after everyone left for school, Aizawa said that he read the note and the pages before that of this book I'm writing in right now and said if I ever needed to talk I could talk to him or my friends. Then he placed it on the small table next to me and put my pen that I left in the middle of the book on the table too.

I'm writing from my hospital bed still playing with the things everyone got me to make me feel better. Seriously I love the gifts because they are personal, not just a teddy bear saying 'I love you.' It means they really wanted me to get better and they really are thinking about me. Fuck I feel like I'm in some cheesy friendship anime or show.

Im going to sleep now since it's late. I hope they visit again.

Ok I'm not keeping this damn book on this table for anyone to read because this is getting way too cheesy and out of my usual aggressive personality. I'll put it under my pillow for now.

Goodnight.

I know that this is probably not the time to ask but should there be ships for Bakugou?
Tell me what you think!