𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑃𝑜𝑖𝑠𝑜𝑛 ꨄ jamie bower

06

august
「drive in theatre」
                                                               (revision)

yesterday was way too embarrassing. i don't even want to go to school today. i lay in bed as my alarm goes off. i groan and slap the top of it, my palm hitting the snooze button. i don't have to go to school if i don't wanna. who's to tell me no? i have good grades, i may get recommended to a good college, and i always do my work ahead and finish first.

what's so bad about me missing a day or two? or maybe the whole week. i don't know what i was so embarrassed of. i don't know why i chose not to go. i hear a knock at my door. i don't get up to answer, i just pull the blankets over my shoulder and cover the light from me as i hug my stuffed animal.

"hey, sorry." i hear lain. i roll my eyes and continue to keep my fake sleeping pose. she places a plate of cookies on my dresser. "get up for school." she says before closing the door. i don't move. i'm as still as a rock. for one, my eyelids were still heavy and i felt more tired than usual after that huge scolding i gave lain last night. i feel bad. she apologized repeatedly.

what if jamie doesn't like me back? so embarrassing. my alarm goes off again, causing me to jump. "god fucking damnit!" i yell, slapping the top of my clock again. i lay back in bed peacefully, no disturbances. i fall asleep for another.. hmm.. four or five-ish hours? before i wake up to my phone ringing. when i woke up, the ringing was way louder than usual. i'm not sure if it's because of it echoing since i just woke up

or.. maybe i was hallucinating. okay. maybe the second option. i'm hallucinating, so i won't pick up the phone. it probably wasn't ever ringing. i'm still in that dream where me and britney spears took pics together in cancun.. right? maybe it's britney's manager. nope. the phone rings again and takes me out of my dream. i answer the phone, rubbing my eyes. my eyelids were heavy as hell. "wazaaahhhh!~" i hear from the other line.

"you're not ghost face. who is this and what do you need?" i ask in a moody tone. "just woke up? it's jamie. you bailed on me yesterday. your sister gave me your number." oh my god. "you have a very sexy morning voice. why weren't you at school?" he asks. "embarrassment." i hang up the phone call. he rings again and i answer. "shut the fuck up." i say. i check the time while on call.

"aren't you supposed to be at school?" i ask. "i am.. but i'm right outside of your home." i suddenly raise wide awake. "what?" i hear knocking at my door. that can't possibly be him, right? how the hell did he get my address? "i'm not even dressed! i can't answer the door!" i yell. "fine by me. i know how to pick locks." he says. "what?!" i hear my door unlock and then creak open. he hangs up the phone.

i freeze in shock. what the fuck? is this real? i need to find shorts.. a shirt.. a bra.. no wait.. this is a dream. "hey." he leans on my door way. i place my hands on my face, stressed out. he looks down at my boobs. "someone is a bit cold." he says. "how the hell do you know my address?" he starts walking towards me. "question we do not." he sits down in front of me.

i hug my bunny to distract him from my boobs. "is this a dream?" i ask. "yes, it is." he plays along. "okay then.. jamie have sex with me!" i say, fully convinced that i'm just lucid dreaming. "okay." he starts untying his shoes and then moves closer to me. he cups my face and smiles. my face was in shock. "you have a nice room." he tells me. "oh my god i so wish i could do this in real life.. please fuck me." i say.

"really? how badly do you want to experience this in real life?" he asks with an intrigued smile. "so bad." i reply. he places his hand on my waist and then gets closer to my face. "really bad? explain." he says. "i'll finger myself to you.." i admit. "oh? is that so?" he slides his hands inbetween my thighs. "do you wanna know a little secret?" he asks, getting closer to my ear. "yes, please." i reply. "none of this is a dream." he smiles. what? my eyes widen.