Irresistible Attraction

fuck off~ part 8

I woke up to find myself on my bed, how did I get here? My memories were blurry but then I started remembering bit by bit

I fought against men who tried to kill my papa and me, everybody was shocked, forced to explain and then look of hatred from my father and the me having an asthma attack

A feeling of shame and guilt then passed through me, I had allowed myself to be tortured by those men and also allow him to leave his family

I don't think I can forgive myself, heck I haven't forgiven myself for a long time

Outside I would act like I am daddy's brat while on the inside the emotional damage is weighing me down

I was still thinking hard when a voice distracted me from my thought

"Are you okay princes" my dad said in a caring voice and a look of pity

Oh gosh I don't want any one to pity me can't they see I am doing fine

"As you can see I am perfectly okay" I snapped at him

I know I was a bit harsh but I was irritated

I turned to look at him when I didn't hear a reply and boy I started feeling guilty, his eyes held a regret and sadness, my dad only showed expression sometimes but never has he look so broken like now

"Papa" I called out softly and he came out of his trance

"Mi amor ♥️" he said with his voice broken and it just added to my guilt

One thing I know my father for is that he has never looked weak in front of me

Always showing me the happy side, I guessed I got too used to it that I forgot there are different side of this man

Yesterday I saw a complete other side when he was fighting and today the broken side

"Yes padre" I answered

"I am sorry" he said with his voice quivering and then he fell down on his knees and started crying

What The Fuckkkkkkk

I am seeing Daniel Thompson the mafia leader crying

No no no it's impossible

But I couldn't help it as a tear slipped from my eyes

"Papa it isn't your fault, stop blaming yourself maybe if I had not sneak out from the house I wouldn't have put my self in such a mess" I was in full blown tears already

"No mija if I had taken you along with me all this wouldn't have happened, if I had asked of you every single damn day then maybe I would have realized you were missing, if I had been available in your life more instead of being a mafia leader you would have told me about what you were facing, your mother has refused to talk to me but that's not the problem, she won't forgive me I don't care because I can't even forgive myself, all I want is for you to forgive me" he released a sigh after the speech

I was shaking my head indicating no, the man was blaming him self and here I was blaming myself also

"Daddy, don't you ever say that, remember you did all this for my well-being and safety you wouldn't have left me if you knew, papa know matter what you say you did the right thing, you didn't want me to get involved in this messy life but anyhow I got involved, this only mistake you made-" I paused and I looked at him to see him waiting for me to continue

"You didn't pay attention to my character, you didn't see that I needed to get involved in the mafia life, look dad I was born with that blood and no matter how I try to outrun it it will still come back to me, so just calm your tits down" as I said and we both laughed