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China pov
4 or 5 weeks ago at lunch
11:00 am
Y'all really think I should do this I said to Torre and Lea
If you want to, torre said.
Yess girl, Lea said.
But what if he doesn't like me and then doesn't want to be friends anymore.
Think about it like this, what if he likes you if you don't ask him you'll never know and just be wondering, Lea said
your right but I'm just so scared.
It's ok to be scared, just push all those negative thoughts out of your mind for rn and breathe before you have a panic attack.
ok Ok I can do this. I walked over to where CJ was sitting asked to talk to him alone.
fasho, then we sat at a table with nb around it.
So whatcu wanted to talk about? he said.
I-I l-like y-you and wanted to ask if you wanted to go out.
Tf im stuttering for dumbass 🤦🏽♀️I said to myself
oh he said while his lips turned into a frown, I ain't know you felt like that about me...
yea I said lowly.
um I-... China I'm sorry but I don't like you in that way,even if I did I'm not looking for a relationship rn l, and I don't want that it would ruin our friendship, your my best friend and I don't wanna change that.
I can tell he was trying not to hurt my feelings but it still hurted getting rejected.
oh I said looking down trying not to cry, ughh I hate being so sensitive.
you good?.
yes I mumbled I got up and started walking to the bathroom I heard torre and lea whisper my name but I keep walking once I got in the bathroom I started crying, this is why I didn't want to say anything I knew he would say no, I heard the bathroom door open and it was my friends asking was I alright and what happened.
I told them what happened, omg I'm so sorry, Lea said.
Imma beat his ass making my bestie get sad and cry, Torre said.
I laughed it's ok I knew there was a chance he would say no.
They hugged me you shouldn't cry over him, torre said.
Ik could one of you please get my stuff.
I'll get it, Lea said leaving me and Torre.
Your about to leave aren't you.
Yea I just wanna go home I don't really wanna be in the same class as him rn.
