Two months later
July 28 2023
3:30 pm
It's been two months and Mir is still in the hospital he's getting better but I can tell this is draining him mentally. He's parlayed from the waist down and the doctors told us he may not be able to walk again even so he's not giving up and continues to try.
He's actually been making some progress. He stood up for the first time today without any help. I'm so proud of him for not giving up.
In a couple of weeks me and dre go off to college.
I wasn't really sure that I wanted to go to college especially since he's still in the hospital but I'm gonna do this for Mir. If Mir would've finished college he would've been the first person in our family to go to college.
All he wanted to do was make me and momma proud and set an example for me and show me what not to do.
He knew the streets were dangerous and most ppl out there don't live past 30 so he wanted to get a real job. He was going to school for business he wanted to create a law firm with mostly black employees. He felt that black ppl weren't protected by law as much as others. He did everything he could for our ppl. Im going to continue his path and make him proud.
Im going to go to school for business and to open up a black owned hospital and many other black owned businesses. And help our people out because as of right now we only have ourselves.
CHINA, I heard pulling me from my thoughts.
hm?
you ain't hear me calling you?
nah my b
you good.
you still thinking about jaymir?, torre asked.
yea, i mumbled.
It's gonna be okay he wants you to go.
It just bothers me how they haven't found who shot him yet.
Ik but god won't let them get away with it.
I hope not.
anyways girl we need to pack up you stuff cause yk you got to leave to put your stuff in the house.
Ik.
Let's go then instead of sitting here looking like two big barneys.
I laughed.
...
2 hours later
ouu shiii I'm so tired I said laying on the couch.
Ik,torre said.
that's the most I've ever moved in my life.
girl stop bein dramatic.
I'm not being dramatic torre.
Okay she said rolling her eyes.
Im finna order some zaxbys want sum.
yea just get me whatever you getting.
K
I need a shower if the food come before I'm out just put mines in the microwave.
ok.
I walked to the bathroom and stopped by jaymir's door.
I missed him so much, I missed his jokes us fighting him doing crazy stuff.
I went into the bathroom locked the door and silently broke down.
I miss you so much mir I mumbled.
I took a quick shower and then laid down to take a nap.
I woke up drenched in sweat.
I had a nightmare again. Ever since he got shot I've been having those it's always the same mir laying on the concrete bleeding out and coughing up blood not able to talk.
And before I wake up I always hear a person say say die slow just like yo daddy bitch.
I looked at the time and saw it was around 8 pm.
Damn I went to sleep for a quick nap and woke up two hours later.
Ugh now I got to take another shower.
As soon as I stood up I felt the urge to puke.
I ran to the bathroom and threw up everything I ate td which was only a salad because I went to sleep before I ate my zaxbys.
After I finished I cleaned myself up then turned the shower on.
Ughh I feel horrible, I mumbled.
I wonder what that dream was about it felt so real. I didn't even realize I feel asleep.
Once the water was good enough I got in and cleaned myself.
40 minutes later
I got out and dried myself off then put on my underwear and bra. I put one of those granny gowns if y'all know what I'm talking about and some fuzzy socks.
Then I went downstairs to the kitchen and got my zaxbys.
Tbh I didn't really have an appetite for that but I didn't wanna waste my money.
I heated it up then slowly ate it.
About 15 minutes later I was done so I sat in the living room trying to find a movie to watch.
While I was looking for a movie I heard a knock come from the door.
I looked out the peephole and saw that it was dre.
I opened the door and let him in then closed it and locked it back.
Hey mama, he said hugging me.
Hey bookie,I mumbled.
you good.
mhm why you ask, I said lowly.
you just seem so drained.
I laughed.
I just feel a little sick that's all.
awww my poor baby why?
well Ive been having weird dreams then when I woke up from one td I threw up immediately ever since then I haven't been feeling like myself.
aww mamas lemme see if you got a fever.
He felt my forehead.
You do kinda feel warm, you ate already?
yea.
cmere, he said.
He sat down and sat me in his lap.
It's okay mamas he said rubbing my back.
I felt myself slowly letting my worries go away and close my eyes soon I fell asleep.
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