HIM (editing)

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I woke up , look over to see Lou  not there  , I already was sick I threw up twice lastnight . I grab my robe and walked around the house calling Lou  name . Baby ? I figure he just went out , I look around and walked back up stairs to grab my phone I call him but all it saying is The number you called is no longer in service . That's not like him I started to make the bed when I notice the red velvet box. I sat on the bed and opened i cried what's going on , I was so confused inside was a small piece of paper. wait for me kay , I love you . L. I took a shower got dress and slip the ring on my finger

been crying so much my eyes so puffy , I grab my keys and went to see my dad. I know he'll help me findl lou . I pulled up to my moms house and got out. Mom where's dad ? He in the back . Dad ? I seen my dad & I was just started crying hard asf . what's wrong. ? I can't find Lou . Crying historically, what honey slow down . Lou was gone when I woke up. Call him dad. Call him from your phone. Right now. Something wrongs . I need him. He pulled his phone out and passed it to me and again it says The number you called , is no longer in service . Dad please , find him. My mom came in what's going on ry? Lou is gone ma , I can't find him . I broke down to my knees. I know he won't just leave like that. I jump up running to the trash and throwing up inside of it. Baby calm down my mom said you throwing up and shit. Mom tell dad to help me

Waiting at the airport, my stomach was in knots.
I know ry probably tripping right now. My new phone started ringing and it was Julius .
Julius: you at the airport Me: what it look like. Julius : listen-
Me: listen what after this job I am done.
Julius: we will see    Just like that the phone hung up. 
Boarding to Atlanta GA.

I walked over headed them my information and walked on the plane . I am not even gonna at lie I ain't sitting here crying cause I am . All I wanted was this 5 months to fly pass . I was ready to get back home to ry

day 44

Idk what was going on but I was spreading I wasn't eating that much. Since he been gone , Today I had a doctors appointment .I took a shower and got dress . I had been staying at my house now that he was gone , I cooked for  Melia and headed to my appointment. Ms . Ryan congratulations you are pregnant, huh ? Your gonna be a mommy she did a little dance. I am gonna be a mother . Yes Ms. Maxwell . It must be some Kinda mistake , no it say right here your about 6 weeks.

I walked out and sat in my car , here I am pregnant and I don't even know where Lou is , i haven't talk to him . I just wanna here his voice , I miss his smell I was sad most of the time but the only hope I held on to was his note. wait for me. wait for me . Is all I repeated and I know this might sound dumb but I am keeping my baby. I rub my stomach and whisper daddy gonna be with us real soon. You hear me In there.... I went to my mothers house to share the news. I walked in and everybody was siting around the table eating lunch it Saturday so everyone is home. Hey ma , hey baby you hungry . Not really I said depressed , I have something to tell you guys , Mila what is it you found Lou . Is he okay . I don't know honestly.

I put the ultrasound in the middle of the table. Ryyyyyyyyyyy you pregnant. yes and it's Lou, I am keeping it too. Awww congratulations baby my mom came over hugging me . My dad jus sat there in disbelief, you pregnant by him . Yeah I am 6 weeks. My dad shook his head got up and hugged me. Congrats baby I smiled . Milayou ready to be a auntie , yesss

I posted a picture on instagram, and there was my little bug 🦋 mommy don't know what you are yet but I love you already 💕 .     

I went home and took a shower , I miss Lou  so much I was sick . It's been a hour and I am still laying down on my bed.  My phone ring and it was No caller Id . I ignored it and it called back again.

No caller ID , I answer it and there it was that voice I was missing .

Lou: baby you pregnant
Me :Lou?.
Lou: it's me baby , you pregnant ry .
Me : yes baby I am 6 weeks. I found out today .

Lou: ahhh imma be a dad. I miss you I can't wait to see you baby.
Me : when you coming back , where are you.
Lou: I can't say to much , I love you so much kay I'll be home soon . Don't tell anyone you talked to me. Take care of my baby. Make sure you eating baby I know you.
Me : I -The phone hung up.      

I was so happy but very emotional, I missed his voice. I missed my man. I grab a pillow and Just laid in the bed. I was relived that he was okay . He sounded healthy . I got up and head to my shop , Anna was there's and she hug me. You okay boo she said. Yeah I am fine. I went to my office going over inventory, putting up are new website. Going over my banks statements . After 4 hours I was done , Ann was gone and I closed down the shop . I headed to Olive Garden to grab a to go order and went back homee . when I got home I seen roses and a card , I read the note and it said 6 years is too long , I'll be home soon.  Love , MI nearly passed out I called my dad