Entracing Tales

Shattered Hearts

What I'm writing today is not from my mind or thought about. It's a true story and I thought of sharing it with you'll. No names will be mentioned. It will just be one chapter with emotions and feelings. 

Enjoy

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A little angel. 

She kept trying for years for things to work out in her life. Yet it didn't. Not with her Job, not her career, not her future. She tried many things but nothing helped. 

So she was hurt by everything that was happening in her life. She tried hard to achieve everything but nothing seemed to work. 

The main thing her heart ever desired was to feel wanted. 

She kept being strong yet someone always shattered her dreams of being loved and cared for. 

So one day she decided that she wanted to hold her heart for the right one. She promised herself she won't fall for the wrong guy again. 

Then he came. Wanting a chance, kept asking and showing interest for over a year. She told him she was afraid of giving herself as she always got hurt. 

So he told her he won't hurt her. He promised her the world. She was so happy and excited that she told her parents about him, and he told his mum about her. He said to her that was special for him to tell his mum. 

He gave her so much hope and happiness.  Made her feel worthy of herself. She was so excited about being in this relationship. The conversations never died. Kept going. He used to keep checking if she was okay, when she was out he used to check if she reached home and if she ate, and whenever they used to say they loved each he always said he loves her more. 

How she wanted all of this and she finally got it. She stopped everything and gave him her all. Not caring about anything or anyone. Gave up on her hobbies. Made her life revolve around him. 

They decided within a year they will get married. 

Her parents were so excited. She was on top of the world. She couldn't wait. She made dua for their relationship every single day. 

But as they say. One day good things come to an end. 

One day things started to fade from his side and she started noticing. him being online for hours yet ignoring her, not explaining to her, making her feel like she is at fault for everything. When she tried calling he never liked it. She had to ask for permission. 

But what was her fault?

What did she ever want? 

Just his time and attention? 

Was that too much to ask for? 

She promised to stick by him through thick and thin so she tried everything but he didn't allow her. He just kept making excuses and pushing her away, 

Yet she kept trying and having hope thinking she was overdoing it. 

Conversation and phone calls that used to be for hours died off to just 1 message a day and then message being seen and no reply. 

So one day she decided to ask him. 

What is their relationship? 

He said she was too clingy and couldn't give him time as he was going through a lot. So she gave him more time and space. 

But as the days went things were getting worse. Days were being skipped. No Conversations were happening. 

At this time she thought about a lot of things. 

Is this the guy she wants in her life?

Must she hold on to someone who doesn't know what he wants?

Must she keep waiting for someone unsure of his feelings? 

Then she thought about her parents. 

Will they be at ease knowing who she is marrying may never keep her happy?

Will they live in peace? 

Will it cause more harm to them? 

The brother who held her hand, will he want to see her hurt

The Mother who carried her for 9 months will love seeing her daughter go through so much pain

The father who held his daughter and loved her to bits, who gave her everything she ever wanted and treated her like a princess, would he love to see her treated like trash 

Then she thought of him. The one she loved... 

She asked herself. 

Did he love her?

Does he miss her?

Did he play her?

Did he not think that he has a sister, a mother a bhabhi, and niece? 

Would he love to see them in pain? 

If he won't then who gave him the right to make false promises another father's treasure? 

So she thought and thought and said no one can be so busy to give her time.

No one can say they going through so much that they need months of space.

No one can say they love someone but can go days without talking to them.

No one can say they love you but treat you worse than a friend. 

She asked her close ones for advice. What should she do, must she let go or give him time?

Everyone gave different advice at different times. 

Some said to give him time some said forget about him. 

Then her parents said she is wasting her time. He doesn't love her. This isn't how a relationship works. 

She must she what she wants to do. 

She doesn't know she asked for help and guidance but it still hurts because she gets no answer. 

He doesn't chat but didn't block her either. She was confused. Sometimes she wants to hold on and sometimes she feels like letting go. 

What must she do? As the days went that little bit of hope had started dying in her as well. 

And that pain in her heart surfaced again but she decided she will have to be strong. For herself and her parents, she decided something. She gave her heart to him yet he gave her nothing but lies and pain. 

So she went and made dua to Allah. Asking for help and guidance. 

And she knows that whatever pain she felt, whatever this man put her through, and whatever he did to her Allah knows and he listens. 

So she left everything in Allah's hands as the answer she got was to have Sabr. 

She isn't sure if she is making the right decision or not, she isn't sure if she is hanging onto something that won't happen, so she just takes each day as it comes. 

It's not easy but she is trying. And she hopes, in the end, she makes the right decision... 

For herself, her parents, and for a better future. 

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