The Closet

Real Bad

Wanting him/her.

Kisses

Hugs 

I crave your lips .

I study the details of your face when I'm with you. 

The way you walk .

The way you talk .

I crave you real bad .

Sitting in this chair and realizing , i want you sexually .

Not mentally .

I wanted you to myself .

I still do , sometimes all the time .

When I see you I try to go the other way .

I try to avoid you in every possible way .

Even though I crave you .

I know I must let you go .

The smell of your cologne , lingers in the shirts of my fabrics .

Ill be getting over you , and in the process I smell you and all my feelings start to pour back in .

I miss you so much . 

Why wont this feeling go away , my body wants you .

One day I would like to hate you , then I would love to have a intellectual conversation.

When we first met , you said you loved me ... Did you mean it or were you just talking ?

You said you'd do anything for me , was that a lie ?

Why did you look me in the eyes , and lie to me ?

I believed you that night , You broke my heart that night , I just wouldn't know it until months later .

Its crazy .

If I could meet you for the first time again , I wouldn't change anything .

I loved you . 

As in past tense , but I don't regret meeting you .

I still want you real bad . 

I wanna touch you real bad .

I want you to love me , real bad .

I want you mentally to crave me , real bad .

Ive been so in tune with my feelings , i forgot to think about you .

How do you feel ?

What do you want to do ?

Do you hate me , how is your mental ?

What did I do to you ? Was I perfect for you ?

What did I do wrong , that was so bad to make you not want anything to do with me ?

I'm sorry it was me that made us depart , I'm sorry that I made you angry for whatever it was . I am sorry I couldn't save us , I needed to save myself first .

Sometimes I wanna text your phone and just pour my heart out , but I know better .

You wont text back , you wont call me , you wont even care.

I craved the love you showed me , when we first met .

Where did that go , who are you giving it to these days ?

I miss those late night car conversations we had , while making love in the backseat.

Every time you looked in my eyes I felt like a little girl eating candy for the first time , I wanted more.

It would be hard to explain my love for you when the sight of you makes me speechless.

It should of been us.