𝐌𝐲 𝐌𝐮𝐬𝐞

【3】

Oh sweetheart. You have no idea how much I've missed you. If this was the only way to talk to you and get close again, then so be it. Ever since high school you ignored me. You left me behind, although I was the only person to support you. I was the one staying up late with you. I was your number one. But I see that has changed.

We graduated. You left, I stayed. You signed with record studios, I found gigs at local bars, You became famous, but so did I. Don't think you were the only one making progress here. You wrote our own songs, we performed them, and played them together. You sang and played the guitar while I played the drums. I was your beginning. You wouldn't be where you are right now if it wasn't for me.  Don't you forget that. You tried so hard  to get rid of me,  but you have no chance of winning. Because no matter how hard you try, I'll find a way to come back.

I was there for you when you needed me. Every single time. The problem was our relationship. Hell. Can I even call it a relationship when I was the one to deny it? When I was the one to push you away. When I was the one to break you. Every damn time. I'd build you up and break you down like a brick wall for my own amusement. I regret it. I regret turning that sweet girl into a heartless person who wouldn't even look my way anymore.

The amount of times I missed you. Plenty of times, me blowing up your phone with calls or text messages hoping one day you'd pick up or reply. I didn't have a chance. I had no chance until now. This is going to be fun.

An offer to become drummer, guitarist, or singer in a band. Even better, I can do all those things. Of course I'd accept. Oh what do you know? It's for the one and only Semi Eita, the one who's been 'going out' with my girl. Have they been hooking up? I swear if he lays a finger on her...

I'll not fight about this for now. I'll become part of this band. I'll get close to her again and gain her trust. She will be mine.

Your reaction to seeing me walk on stage was priceless. I wish someone would've recorded that. The way your eyes widened realizing it was me next to your little so called "boyfriend" or whatever he was. I knew I'd find you one way or another. We were fine until he showed up. Until you decided to be with him.

I approached you backstage after the show. You didn't seem too happy to see me. Oh how that broke my heart. Not really. I tried apologizing, but you obviously weren't taking it. You knew my apologies mean nothing at all.

You knew what I was trying to do. Oh my sweet girl, such a smart person. Read me like an open book. No shame on that. She knew how I was before and I know she doubts I changed for the better.

I tried several times, but it's hard. It's been around four years that we parted our own ways. This was our first time seeing each other again. Yet she still knew everything about me, like she never left my life.

I will not let you forget how you got here y/n. You know what you had to do to get where you are at right now. Neither of us are stupid enough to let it go unseen.

I could care less how far I have to go to make you mine. If I have to, I'll sabotage everyone and everything in your life so you only have one person to turn to. Me.

Don't forget my dear, y/n.

I was your beginning, and I will be your end if I have to.

uh oh... this is messy... and toxic, like leave y/n alone damn

How do we feel about Suna?

Honeslty I'm not sure of what Suna is plotting, but it can't be good. I swear this man is trouble everywhere he goes.