Feel like shit

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Usually never cry at all
I would say I'm pretty tough
But it's been a couple weeks now
And I still feel stuck in my lungs
And usually I go out on nights
And not think of you once
But if they start playin' that song
I can't help but to think about us, oh


When we finally got to the house I practically Sprinted to my room I locked the door and fell on my bed I put my AirPods on and blasted sad songs call me dramatic or whatever but I just couldn't deal with Jaden asking another girl out ok maybe I may have catches feelings for him. the car ride was sooooo awkward he would try to talk to me and I'll just answer dryly I guess I let my emotions get in the way

Really thought I'd be done with the hardest part
When I pulled myself out of your arms
Wish I knew that was only the start
And now I'm fallin' apart 'cause


My music was blasting like when I say blasting it was full on high I was listening to chaotic by Tate McRae god I love her I guess I could say we get each other yk I was so into my thoughts that I didn't even know Jaden came in as I saw him I quickly sat up and took my AirPod off

JJ: yea?
Jaden: I asked her She said yes
My heart drop
JJ: oh I'm so happy for you
I gave a weak smile
Jaden: yea and I'm going with your idea imma bring her to the house and do Netflix and chill I want you to meet her
JJ: oK
My voice cracked as I wanted to cry so fucking bad at one point I thought he was gonna ask me when he asked what was my favorite snacks but I guess not
JJ: when?
I question
Jaden: today
JJ: oh nice... um if you don't mind could you get out imma shower
Jaden: oh yes ofc
Before he leaves he gives me a tight long hug
Jaden: thank you
Was all he said before leaving
I fell to my knees crying

Last night for the very first time
You didn't even try to call
Oh, I won't lie, I thought I might die
I couldn't even sleep at all
And maybe I'll get used to it (ah, ah)
But right now I just feel like shit (ah, ah)
Oh, oh

After what felt like an hour i got up and went to the bathroom where I took a long ice shower when I got out my body was numb I was shaking from the coldness I changed into some sweats and a hoodie I lay down and put my AirPods on Blasting Feel like shit by Tate McRae

So I kissed somebody else
Just to see how it felt
But all that was goin' through my brain
Was your hands around my waist
You know how to do it so well

I finally left the room to see Jaden and the girl my heart drop she was so pretty her eyes were light green she had natural soft pink lips and her hair was so pretty she had light brown hair and soft blonde tips at the end her smile was so pretty too she had some jeans that fit her nicely she came up to me
Josslyn: hi I'm josslyn
With a nice soft voice
JJ: um hi I'm JJ

Really thought I was done with the hardest part
When I pulled myself out of your arms
Wish I knew that was only the start
And now I'm fallin' apart 'cause

She kinda gave me a look but when she was about to turn around she smiled that fake bitch she went to Jaden and hooked onto his arm and gave me another look before she smiled and looked at Jaden
Jaden: um we are going to go upstairs
Bryce: use protection!
Bryce yelled out before they went upstairs
Kio: you ok?
I shake my head
He grabs my hand as he takes me upstairs to his room his room was really nice it was like a vibe I liked it a lot

Last night for the very first time
You didn't even try to call (you didn't even try to call)
Oh, I won't lie, I thought I might die
I couldn't even sleep at all
And maybe I'll get used to it (ah, ah)
But right now I just feel like shit (ah, ah)
Oh, oh

Last night for the very first timeYou didn't even try to call (you didn't even try to call)Oh, I won't lie, I thought I might dieI couldn't even sleep at allAnd maybe I'll get used to it (ah, ah)But right now I just feel like shit (ah, ah)Oh, oh

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Now if I get a little too drunkI'll start thinkin', "What if you were the one?"I know that the damage is doneAnd I still have the shirt that you woreWhen we first met, it's there on the floorI might kick it under the bedHopin' that I could forget ...

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Now if I get a little too drunk
I'll start thinkin', "What if you were the one?"
I know that the damage is done
And I still have the shirt that you wore
When we first met, it's there on the floor
I might kick it under the bed
Hopin' that I could forget that

It was small but it was so nice
JJ: I like you room
Kio: thank you, so talk to me what's wrong?
JJ: I don't like her
Kio: josslyn?
JJ: yes!
I yell out
Kio: ok chill
JJ: sorry
Kio: she seem nice
JJ: but she's not she kept giving me a look like she wanted to kill me then smiled before she turned around she's not good for Jaden
Kio: and who is?
Me
JJ: I don't know someone better then her he's gonna get hurt
Kio gives a sad look and comes and hugs me I take in the hug and cried in his shoulders
Kio: it's ok
He said rubbing my back


Last night for the very first time
You didn't even try to call
Oh, I won't lie, I thought I might die
I couldn't even sleep at all
And maybe I'll get used to it (ah, ah)
But right now I just feel like shit (ah, ah)
Oh, oh

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